February 21, 2006 3:47 PM GMT
Denise, my advise to you is you do what you wanna do. And f*&* anyone else who tells you that crossing genders, or a skirt is wrong. Who says it's wrong, or weird? Who makes these laws, it's stupid. So you hold your head held high luv, but never forget you always have our full support here.
October 25, 2005 1:27 AM BST
Denise,
As one in your exact situation, I think you made the right move. And, as one who teaches college, I will not grade you down on spelling or grammar. This time.
I came out to my wife almost two years ago. Like you, I couldn't keep it in anymore. It was in fact being a Trannyweb member that gave me the courage. Also like you, I couldn't have her finding out much later and have her wonder if all our years together were a sham.
As you might well know, we're not living together at the moment. My being TG is not what really got me put out of the house. However, she is hardly pleased with it, although on occasions we did joke about it. She has accepted the fact that it will always be part of me no matter what, although she never wants to see it. She also hated my being part of the Trannyweb community. Well, hostile towards TW is more like it, even if some of the girls here helped us out in a few ways.
None of us want to cause anyone pain by revealing who we are. Unfortunately, society put us in that predicament - you know, the old "boys are boys and girls are girls" sort of nonsense. You were anything but selfish in revealing this to her.
Right now I'm hanging on to hope me and my wife will start talking again soon. Our separation right now is not meant to be permanent. I do know that when we do start talking again in earnest this will come up. I guess I'll have to face that situation when it comes.
I have come out to some other people. The only ones truly supportive have been my mother and younger sister. I can understand my wife not being thrilled with it. She even wondered once if I used her bra and panties. She got "mad" when she discovered some of my own because mine were nicer than hers!
I wish you luck. Unlike you, I can't be at home now to see or talk to my wife. I miss her so much. I miss my daughter. I know that if I ever transition they would cut me out of their lives forever (well, maybe not my daughter since she's just turning 8 in two weeks). I don't know if I can handle that. I could get over the loss of my marriage eventually, but never the loss of my kid.
Take care. And let us know how we can help you with any pain you feel.
Mere
October 25, 2005 12:25 AM BST
Well done Denise, I know how hard it is to tell anyone close to you, though I’ve not had a wife to deal with. I’m sure you’ve done the right thing, and by the sounds of it, so far so good. I hope your wife will remain level-headed, just keep talking and reassure her that this doesn’t affect your love for her. I’m sure all will be well, good luck whatever happens.
xx
October 25, 2005 1:45 PM BST
Glad you're feeling positive Denise, I expect like me, you feel a weight has been lifted. I also received comments like Fiona did: "that makes sense", "it's all falling into place", and most of all, in fact almost everybody said, "Well I'm shocked, but not surprised".
And I always thought I hid it so well.
My life has improved tremendously since I came out to my family and friends and started socialising in the role that is appropriate for me.
xx
October 25, 2005 1:57 PM BST
Denise, we're all in the same boat here. We all have to deal with the notion of "what will people think," yet we press forward. Where I'm living now is hardly friendly at all to "our kind." If it wasn't for TW I wouldn't have any TG friends at all.
We should not feel ashamed or guilty. I don't. While I still must be careful with being out - something I hope to change very soon - I actually find pride in being TG. When I finally comepletely forward as being TS there will be a huge fallout. I just hope everyone survives.
Good luck to all of us