Hi girls, not entirely "new" here, but I have been away for quite some time now, partially from a relationship going south but mainly because I finally seem to have done my self-analysing and realised that "this" is most definately what I want to do - quite a relief really, the horrible nagging little gremlin called "Doubt" has reared its head way too many times in the past, resulting in my being in and out of heels more often than most people change their underwear. Now I have throttled the gremlin im back, this time 100% comitted (or maybe I should be comitted lol), this time I have embraced the inner girl and gone the whole way, make-up, "hair" etc....although my early attempts resemble some kind of face painting experiment at McDonalds gone wrong - no stranger to wearing heels etc, been doing that for long enough to have that down to a fine art!!!. Anyway, as is usual for me, im rattling on...so Hi, and prepare yourselves for a barrgae of face painting...errrr, I mean make-up related questions . Oh, lastly, to anyone I knew here previously I apologise for my unannounced departure

Glad to be back Joni, and what a relief it finally is to finally have stopped questioning myself and coming to terms with who I really am. Honestly this realisation and acceptance has actually been harder to get through than the break up of my relationship - so im glad I finally have arrived!!. And thanks for the welcome back

Welcome back Andrea, a lot of us have probably gone through similar experiences in our pasts. I know I tried on several occasions to get rid of Nikki but she just keeps coming back!! In the end, I realised it was because she was the real me, so I just had to come to terms with the fact and let her free. I haven't looked back since.