March 20, 2008 2:11 PM GMT
Greetings One & All!
My name is amandalavender. I am in my 4th month of HRT. I hope to transition completely in the
next few years - the sooner the better as far as I'm concerned. Yet lately, conflicted emotions and
self-doubt have been plagueing me in my quest - in large part due to the crackerjack job my father
did instilling me with a negative self-image. In spite of the fact that he has been gone more than thirty
years, my psychoanalyst suggested that I write a letter to him in an effort to resolve my anger and
hopefully expunge the residual self-loathing his abusive parenting left in my spirit. After some careful
consideration, I thought why not create a thread to achieve that goal? After all, I have no secrets any
longer, and feedback from the members of TW could prove helpful should any of you out there care
to respond. In essence, I suppose I'm asking permission to blorf a bunch of personal bile, angst,
resentment, and righteous indignation here... if it seems like an idea that needs re-thinking, please
let me know. Perhaps one of the Forum's Moderators would be kind enough to inform me if I would
be exceeding the parameters of the Forum's capacity in this endeavour. Sincerely,
amanda
March 20, 2008 2:43 PM GMT
Amanda
Not sure whether you'd be exceeding the capacity of the Forum - I suspect it has no bounds, but I do wonder whether you proposed 'blorf' (?) would result in a positive outcome. Isn't there a risk that by inviting responses to difficult personal issues, that this may only exacerbate your existing opinions on each issue? If a topic requires cranking-up, then this is the place..
I suspect that everyone here would wish to provide you support and advice, but I think the personal bile, angst, resentment and indignation is just that; personal.
I think that it's much better to construct a thread that enables us to respond considerately and postively.
Rachel
March 21, 2008 4:57 AM GMT
Thanks Nikki, I still feel like a bull in a china shop with this computer, but I'm determined not to let it get the best of me. I would encourage you to visit Carren's 'song of the day' thread as I see you are musically inclined. There you can catch a video of Carolyn Wonderland which Carren kindly supplied a link for. Carolyn is going to be interviewed for GUITAR PLAYER magazine, and you can catch her live in Amsterdam in April. Thanks again for your help,
sincerely, amanda
March 20, 2008 3:38 PM GMT
Blorf is a great word!
I wouldn't have thought the moderators would mind you doing it here, but I also think your blog would be a better place to do it, unless you specifically want it to become a topic for discussion.
Writing the letter should have the desired effect, other people ripping it to pieces may not help at all.
xx
March 20, 2008 7:36 PM GMT
Hi Amanda, to access your blog, use the pink drop down menus, 'Communtiy Features' and then select 'Trannyblogger' which will take you to your personal blog page. Once there, click on 'Post message' and start typing. At the end of it, press 'save'.
The blog is a better place to air more personal issue I feel, others can access it and leave messages but it is a lot less public than the forums which might stir up some unwanted responses.
Best of luck,
Nikki