March 6, 2009 3:08 PM GMT
It's a difficult time that you are going through for sure but maybe it helps to look at what you do have going for you. Your girlfriend for one thing, how much harder would this be for you without having her by your side? Don't neglect her, everybody needs someone there for them.
Plus, okay, your operation is on hold, but at least it is still going ahead, it's just going to be a little later now. Focus on that, and make yourself lose the necessary weight to reach your goal. It's in you to do it, no one else can make that happen. They could have said you aren't a candidate for surgery, that would have been far worse don't you think?
So, although this is a rough time, you have a lot going for you to get you through it. No problem is insurmountable, you just need to figure out the best way forward to set things your way again.
Best wishes,
Nikki