September 28, 2009 8:46 AM BST
Hi SUsan
Just so you know. I have never had any doubts about who or what I am.
Having said that, I have not had surgery before because of how the DOCTORS treated me. Now I may be to old [even though I am a little younger then you LOL] and broke to do anything about it.
Having said that. If I can "pass" well enough then maybe that is all I can hope for, but even that would be a great improvement over my life as it was.
Definitely find a good therapist and talk it out though. In time you may find you are TS but are happy as you are. That is not a crime either by the way.
There is nothing wrong with being happy as you are.
Stephenie
Susan,
It's not uncommon to be unsure whether you have opened up something that was long buried or if, instead, you are simply so happy at living what you had to hide all your life that you feel you must actually be transsexual. Marsha's recommendations are well founded and a gender therapist may help you sort out your feelings and find what they mean to you. As Marsha, alluded, not all of us failed to make some of the journey to the Male Side of gender. You may not fit in a "box" and may be "inter-gendered" (as opposed to intersexed). In this case SRS or even HRT may not be for you. You need to be sure to find YOUR choice of lifestyle and not choose M or F. Just be happy. The time for meeting the needs of outsiders is over. Meet your needs.