Hi Marsha.
I believe it is wrong to ignore others like us with similar challenges that are calling for help.
A very Nobel attitude. One I certainly practiced. and good for you that your happy to be there should others require it. One fact for sure is many seek help (more often attention than actual help) but they either refuse to listen and act upon the advice they sought, and or usually up to or past 1 year into transitioning actually refuse to accept the advice claiming that you I or whoever is giving it wrong and are trying to stop them or put them down etc. Just like others in again any walk of life the truth hurts or is indigestible.
I am a straight taker who refuses to coat anything i have to say in a coating of sugur. I'll say it how it is rather bluntly, I do know how to talk to people after all so many open up and tell me all even stuff they have never told others when in my presence for an incredibly short amount of time. Its strange though I am willing to listen and process what is being told to me ............but often this is not reciprocated, not that i seek personal grandisement or heroine worship just that what has been said by me to them is listened to and thought about rather than be dismissed, after all they sought I not i them to preach at or too.
Yet again years of experience has shown me that many who do take the, for many difficult and challanging path to transition refuse to listen and hear advice and truths about what will be faced, from those who have been there.
Last year at one of my 6 monthly visits to the gender clinic (to remain on their books should any surgical proceedure be requested / desired by me) I was discussing my avoidance of the sector of trans people who do mentoring, form support groups and do stirling work on behalf of that " Trans community" he said to me " Ahh the proffesional transwomen"
I knew exactly what he ment, he understood why i would desire to distance myself from such things.
Because it ends up like a full time job. You wouldnt belive the number of Transitioners who either get pointed in my direction or through friends of friends of friends get in touch with me. I will listen to that they ask i give the relevant information but ask that they deal with trans support forums , groups and other portals including via the gender clinics and councellors doctors etc.
My example has been to be a successful happily intergrated woman in society. I dont deny my past history and always educate where and when it is pertitant too.
As with all aspects of knowledge we stand on the shoulders of our forebears. I have the greatest of respect of those who came before me and know how indebted I and others like are to them for changes in laws, medical proceedures treatments etc and its a continual ongoing thing. I do my small part where and when its required.
But i think ultimatly it can be a negative approach the trans people sticking together in much the same way it used to be by segregating deaf children / teens from their non deaf sibilings likewise physically handicapped, autistic etc etc groups of "different people" it reduces the chance of either party to be able to accept or be accepted and to intergrate properly.
As human beings we need at times support ,understanding someone to listen, to advise. To hug us pick us up when we are down to educate. I understand this some of us are stronger than others need no help forge ne paths open up frontiers, maybe people like that are better at breaking the new ground leaving it for others to follow and set up the campsites, start the building of a town farm the food etc etc etc sorry for the metaphor but a rather apt one i think.
So one thing i am willing to agree upon is simply this.
We are responsible for ourselves. We are responsible for the society we are part of. We should all be excellent to each other ( thanks Bill & Ted )
But at the end of the day Reality Bites.
Sarah.
Sarah, you and I are so similar, yet so different. You know I am very opinionated and very blunt. I often take a great deal of criticism for the opinions I express. I can only express my opinions, what I see right in my life. Whether or not anyone listens or learns from my experiences is both immeasurable and irrelevant. I am not trying to create Marsha clones. But I believe if my experience can help one person, then it is worth expressing. There may have been a time in my life that my life somewhat revolved around being TG, but as I mentioned elsewhere, my life is returning to a more routine one now. As for being a professional TG, I know what you mean and my answer to that is no, I don't want to hold up the flag for the cause, I have my life to live.
I have read your posts and reread them and it just kind of hit me what is going on. You tell people what they should do and when they don't jump to attention and follow your suggestions you take it personally. Often times we don't really know what the outcome of our conversations are. Maybe today or this month they have no use for our advice, however down the road what was told to them today begins to make sense. I am optimistic, that is how I live my life and why I feel I have had a successful transition. Pessimism breeds failure.
I think you are way to early in believing TGs should be independent of a community or group. Ideally down the road we may see more integration into society, but until society universally opens up to us it will be a slow process. It is the same thing as the blacks went through here in America before the civil rights protests. Nothing changed until they united and made white America take notice. Our problem right now is that there are not enough of us for society to notice. So gals who can reasonably pass like you and me can do fine, but for the community as a whole or the concept of one gender changing to the other just isn't universally accepted right now.
Hopefully everything you have said will bear out over time. Just at this moment, you are ahead of our time.
Hugs,
Marsha
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June 5, 2010 10:46 PM BST
Hi all .
I said i was bailing out here but heres just a few thanks and comments i need to make .
Penny thank you! as a close nieghbour i must say thanks for your constuctive input , don,t bang your head to hard though lol .
Anna Marie another close nieghbour thank you too but for my own reasons i will not be going as i just can,t find the time now anyway.
Janis. i am not twice shy! shyness is not a weakness of mine but thanks for stating the obvious about my sexual assault.
Sarah . No disrespect to you but this is a transgender site so however much you tell yourself you are female "you are transexual" , if you can,t accept there is a transgender community you realy are on the wrong website , you were born in a male body just like myself , i am female "but" i accept i am transexual as theres no getting away from it.
Ali . thank you and what a sweet story too .
Marsha . Thank you you raised some very interesting points about being transexual and how different we all are .
Simone .Thanks but i don,t go in chat rooms so i can,t discuss anything at length.
So thats it end of tread this is where i realy bail out . Thanks again too all Julia xx
Thanks Julia for your nice comments.
I only speek my mind just as you and everyone else has the freedom to do so. Dont worry about me if i come over as if i am banging my head too hard lol. I have a very strong and passionate disposition and I am who I am, i cant help that. My point is i dont want to change you or affect you in a way that doesnt suit you, I just would like you to consider and understand my perspective and add that to your knowledge of life, as I do mine. does that make sense lol? what i am trying to say is, no one is really wrong because their outlook on life suits them. the trick for me is there is always room for further knowledge, understanding different ways of looking at things and general understanding. I think there is a difference in trying to hone in on who oneself is and who everyone else is. maybe these are thoughts i am openly able to talk about when slightly inebriated and embracing my difficulties that i have had with my identity.
i dont mind getting drunk, seems to entertain some!
lots of love and hugs xxx
more hugs xxxx
penny
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another hug x
im sure i had a point to say but i just read back and what a load of tosh, dont worry, i have good practise at apologising which will occur tomorrow, hugs x
Hi Julia,
I guess my experiences are a bit different than yours. I'm a CD who lives her life pretty much full-time andro. I don't get out too much any more but when I do it's mostly where there are other TGs.
There are probably TG specific venues here in the US, but I've never been to one. When I go out it is usually to a TG friendly gay bar. I've never had the hand between the legs thing you described, probably because most of the patrons are looking for someone much more masculine than I am. (If it did happen and the person didn't stop after a polite refusal, they'd go home with a black eye, LOL).
I have been to a couple of Female Impersonator Clubs (I guess the PC term these days is Female Impressionist) like the old Queen Mary out in the San Fernando Valley. I tended to avoid the girls at the bar who were looking to get picked up. I enjoyed the shows and mostly mixed with the straight part of the audience.
I've gone to Pride Parades in Los Angeles and San Francisco, which were fun because almost anything goes and you can really let your hair down like you wouldn't in polite company.
I'm nervous and uncomfortable in the "normal" world and almost never go out by myself. My preference is to go out with a GG friend. I occasionally go out with another TG but only if I know her well enough to trust she won't do anything outrageous that would call attention to me or embarrass me. I just want to blend in, preferably unnoticed in the crowd.
Best,
Melody
Julia.
You are not alone! From the time I started transition 10yrs ago I felt much the same when going to a TG venue.
The only thing I can say in defense of such places is that virtually every club I have ever visited is much the same, a cattle market. Perhaps different clothes and various genders, sexualities and persuasions, but essentially just the same. Ok, the approach might be different, as will be the personal interrogation, but otherwise everything is as it ever was.
I will very occasionally go to an event to meet up with friends, but it is a bit of an ordeal unless there are a reasonable number of you, and you stick together - though many go for exactly the reasons we dislike such places and wander off to do their own thing. At which point I tend to leave.
I too would rather go to my local.
June 3, 2010 11:02 PM BST
Julia, if you're thinking of Doing Suffolk Pride this year then GO for it girl. I went to the first one last year and had a great time mixing with peeps i felt right at home with. The Website has lots of info on what goes on, so take a look& you might be pleasantly suprised.
http://www.suffolkpride.co.uk/
Lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Anna-Marie