March 29, 2005 8:17 AM BST
I'm sorry, Linda, but I failed to find a "stupid comment" on your posts. And what is wrong with being carried away with your emotions? I said, that day, that I was being a be-deviled egg's advocate (pun and double entendre intended). It is laudable that we see the "...flaws and shortcomings of societies whose decency, if imperfect, is without parallel in human history."-Ralph Peters (FIGHTING FOR THE FUTURE). It is also laudable to hope that society will do it's best to treat it's members justly and humanely. Peters also said "The primary function of any civilization is to restrain human excess." We cannot just see the wrongs that could be done by society. We have to also hope for it to do it's best. It is from the minds of those who do the latter that great expectations and changes come from. Our value, if nothing else, lies in our ability to "think outside the box" (I'm sorry, I had to say it
....whip me, beat me; make me date bad Czechs) In case you have NOT realized it, Linda, I do, sometimes, propose ideas for discussion that I do not necessarily support and hope to see other's ideas. I have been very wrong, many many times in my life, when I had an unshakable belief. How do you know your comment was not perceptive, insightful, thought-provoking and valuable? It certainly made me think. I said it scared me....I did not say you were wrong. If we avoided all we feared we would all be sitting in a closet, alone. Sometimes we have to take chances to have progress. It may kill us, but we TGs are evolution's disposable "power up" in the game of life. Lets risk thinking, proposing, acting, doing things nobody else does. We are the Gendernauts! We go where no man has gone before....except Ru Paul.
March 31, 2005 11:35 PM BST
<And what is wrong with being carried away with your emotions?>
In my experience it can lead to quite some problems. Like saying (and expressing in whatever way) the wrong things at the wrong place and time. Wrong that is, if you do not want to lose friends or lose out in other ways. I think that, in a way, you have given the answer yourself, Wendy: Scaring the hell out of people - and not even suspecting that you do - this surely can lead you into great trouble. It may not be "wrong" and, of course, it could be a good thing at times - even taking great chances. But the price paid can be very high.
Linda
April 1, 2005 10:09 AM BST
Linda,
The other side is denying your emotions. Locking them up. Becoming somebody else and living their life. I did this. It was a mistake. I almost died from it a number of times in my life. The value of species diversity is that in any event, some of us will survive THAT event...and some of us will not. I have said far more through guessing, instead of feeling, that created disaster and hurt than I ever did through an excess of emotion. Being Spock (Mr. not Dr.) sucks. It's "safe" but it's no way to live. There is no "right" way to be all the time. Use all your brain, use your best judgement, but live. Hiding emotionally is worse for you than hiding physically. Right now I must "hide" Wendy but I don't hide from her inside myself and I let more of her out in my life. The price of hiding from my emotions has just been too high to let it continue. I know t-girls who will die before being girls....bad choice. I choose to live.
April 1, 2005 3:06 PM BST
Using all of our brain...
Wendy,
something definitely happened to my brain a month or so ago. As I wrote further up on this thread: I have tried this kind of twist-your-brain-space-test before but never with such a bad result. Being in a definite state of transition (no, not HRT, not yet anyway) and working with computer programming for a couple of months it seems to me that I reached some point of no return - like the the point where a mathematical function "jumps" to the other side when reaching an asymptotic line. This was when I finally reached my memories from my eleventh year - entering the memories and feelings from that time. When I chose the expression "twist-your-mind-space-test" it was for a special reason: Reaching this "asymptotic line" I was reminded of how I struggled with mathematical problems in my teens - always trying to visualize them geometrically and almost feeling my brain twisting when forcing myself through this. I did succeed somehow. But it did not come in a natural way to me - as opposed to languages - the typically feminine intellectual ability.
But one month ago I said to myself - I will not do this to myself anymore. I am hurting myself. And then my feelings seemed to be turned free from this twisted old framework. Of course, not being able to complete the programming course was definitely worth it. "Programming course" somehow seems to have had a double meaning/reference here.
Linda