December 19, 2005 4:17 PM GMT
I have finally done it. I have been seen dressed as a woman.
I had my therapist session this morning. I mentioned a few weeks back that I considered going there dressed. She wanted to know why I didn't.
Today I did.
I walked over to the building in the bitter cold (it was about 5 degrees Fahrenheit this morning). When I got there I went to the bathroom where I changed into my skirt and put in my fake boobs. I then walked all the way down the hall and into the waiting room, where a janitor was emptying trash. Needless to say he was a bit surprised. Apparently he went and told my shrink I was there.
She came to get me and I went into her office. After she got me some tea I told her how I finally decided to go dressed to the session. Now, granted, I didn't have on a wig or makeup but she said I looked great. She loved my skirt, and complimented me on my legs. She agreed I have the legs for a miniskirt. I did have to quickly adjust my boobs at one point.
We did discuss HRT and the costs involved. She asked me what I intend to do should I get that job. I told her I would wait a little first and get established before jumping into it. She thought that was a good idea.
She also berated me a little for wearing nylons instead of tights on such a cold day. I told her how I wore jeans walking over there.
She could tell how liberating it was. It was liberating. And I wasn't nervous, or, at least not that much. I wasn't too concerned with others seeing me as I intend to start venturing out anyway.
So I finally took that first big important step. And it feels great.