January 18, 2010 3:01 AM GMT
Hi Marsha,
I'm probably more sympathetic to the special needs of TSs than most CDs. Long ago, in a galaxy far, far away, in the 1970s, my partner was a post-op transsexual. (Did I have reservations that the relationship made me gay, yes at first, but she was so female that those fears quickly went away.) She was a few years older than me and I think she sort to took me under her wing. I watched helplessly when she couldn't get a decent job, got screwed over by the medical system that took her money but wouldn't help her with her health issues and when she suffered all sorts of humiliation and rejection. All I could do was be there for her.
She insisted I go to the lady's room with her when we went out and I was dressed. For safety or companionship or just to test me, I can't say for sure. Who really knows what goes through another person's mind?
I didn't know her before her transition, so I don't know what she went through then. When I first met her, through a mutual friend, she was completely female both mentally and physically.
At the time I was very confused about gender issues. I felt feminine to my core but I had a male body. She encouraged me to begin transitioning to being a female as she had. I very seriously considered going the transsexual route. Was that my life path?
At roughly the same time I was a partner in a custom motorcycle shop. My business partner, let's call him Bill, who as the machinist at the shop also did custom photographic equipment and gunsmithing. He wanted me to get involved with the gun culture. He even signed me up as a member of the National Rifle Association (yes, Marsha, liberal Melody was once a member of the NRA, not that she had any say in the matter.) We went from gunshop to gunshop looking for a Colt Detective .38 snubnose for me. When it came down to actually buying the gun, I realized I have an issue with anger and having a gun around was not a wise decision.
Likewise, I took a hard look at my life, my feelings and my future and wondered if I was really a transsexual. I found that I didn't have that, to use the hoary old cliche, belief that I was a woman trapped in a man's body. I was a very feminine male who dealt with it by expressing myself by being as feminine as I could be: clothes, makeup, jewelry et al.
I think Cyndi saw me as someone she could mentor through transition. When I decided it wasn't for me, we drifted apart. I think I was really a throwback to her old pre-op life. When I wasn't a project for her she got on with her life, married a man with children and really began her new life.
Maybe I'm just a "wannabe" TV/CD but I think I have more insight to TG issues than most.
Best,
Melody
PS, Please don't use terms like "ignorant" to describe someone who doesn't agree with you, it's not very ladylike.
January 18, 2010 12:24 PM GMT
Hugs Melody, I had gathered from many of your other posts that you have been involved in the TG community for some time now and I can admire that. I tried to use ignorant in a softer way, maybe stubborn would have been a better word. However it doesn't really change anything in my opinion. Maybe it is more because of the time. You watched a TS live her life back when there was little expectation society would as a whole accept us. I view it now as we are on the historic edge of being accepted into society. Notice I said on the edge. I feel we are being held back because of a few in the transgender community who continue to feed the old stereotypes. I believe things should be done in stages, therefore I believe those living fulltime should be given various protections first. I am not saying the others should have no protections, just not to the extent as someone who is now living a given way. I believe that will pave the way for others in the community in the near future. I believe right now there is too much demand on society to accept all or nothing and because they have not had enough time to better understand us, they choose nothing. So it is not about who is good or bad, it is about one group of people that happens to be different in a unique way. Just different, not better.
Hugs,
Marsha
January 18, 2010 1:26 PM GMT
Hi Marsha,
Stubborn works for me. That shoe fits. Here's the other half of the pair for you.
Best,
Melody
January 18, 2010 5:49 PM GMT
Works for me Melody. Take good care.
Hugs,
Marsha
January 19, 2010 3:08 PM GMT
Hi,
How disappointing is this thread! If people in the community cant show each other respect, what chance is there from the rest of the world! That said, I have received mostly respect from people in the real world so I can only imagine this was said by the rotten apple that spoils everyone’s day!
Much love
Penny
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February 18, 2010 8:31 PM GMT
Penny my sentiments exactly, without digressing into long statements and definitions about recognition, licenses etc, it was all about a damnable scurilous remark, which does'nt need wads of script, it was what it was a bloody hateful and hurtful remark. end off
Cristine