July 22, 2004 10:47 AM BST
Being made to see a therapist is not calculated to establish a trusting, theraputic relationship between patient and therapist. The requirements to see one are not for that purpose. They are the "gatekeeper" system to protect the system from making a mistake with you and having it thrown in their face and to protect the small minority that should never have transitioned through SRS. It's a one-way trip, girls, you deal with the system to protect Those people from a mistake they can't correct.
There are some poor/bad therapists and mental health providers out there. I have worked with/for some of them. In some cases I stayed to be the one person "my kids" could count on while they were hospitalized. However, most people in the business are caring and, at least, competent if allowed to do their job by the system. Nurse Ratchet is an exception, not the rule.
A good therapist will not try to tell you who you are. They will teach you skills, let you explore yourself, be a sounding board for your thoughts and feelings, and support you in finding your own answers to your questions/problems. They will know that TS patients have a lower than average level of pathology as compared to the entire population...it is one of the diagnostic criteria for confirming true transexualism. If you don't like your therapist, talk to him/her about it. If you can't resolve the issues, change therapists.
I don't know ANYONE who can't benefit in their life from time with a good therapist. It's called Self-Actualization (Maslow). After many months of working out to tell my ex that I could not marry her, I went to see our old therapist first to make sure I was going to make this as easy on her as I possibly could and that I wasn't missing something in my own head. It helped me do it right and avoid guilt afterwards. I'm going back to see him to talk about Wendy and try to put the puzzle back together and locate missing pieces of it. He won't tell me about myself; in fact it is like pulling teeth to get him to ever do that. What he will do is guide me and coach me. And this is a man that, until now, even HE didn't know about that side of me...because I didn't trust even him with it...my failing, not his, it probably seriously interfered with him helping me.
I guess what I am trying to say is the your therapist does not have to be an adversary. They can be a helpful, caring, "friend" who will risk your displeasure to give you the best they can give...you don't find many friends like that.
I only have a few years myself to being a "gateway guardian" (I prefer "Gender Guide") BEFORE A GIRL YOU WILL BE YOU MUST ANSWER ME THESE QUESTIONS THREE!!! What is your femme name? What is your favorite perfume? What is the capital of Baluchistan?
Seriously, those of you who want to share what needs are not being met with your transition therapist I promise to use that information to become that Guide. You can always be anonymous if you prefer. I have 30 yrs of keeping confidences confidential. You would be amazed at what I know about who...but I will never share it with anyone. I learn a lot here. We are all different with different needs and perceptions. Even those of you who are mistaken about certain facts teach me not to assume anything. Most of you teach me about the richness of yourselves and teach me a lot about myself. I was wrong about a lot of what I knew about myself until you taught me differently. That, of course, is most important to me. I would, however, like to "repay" a debt that can never be repaid by your knowing that I will use my personal growth and our shared experiences to help other girls, later, and that one day I will, hopefully, use it all to teach other therapists to work better with us all. You will all be part of what those girls get through me, a major part, and you should take the credit you are due.
Wendy is such a windbag. It's true, women talk to much, lol.