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Hi sorry to keep posting on here but i don't know anyone else in my situation to ask and at the end of my teather. Basicaly i've been in and out of the mental health system since i was 17 suffering from severe depression anxity and agrophobia, i knew what was driving it the fact i'm not a man i'm a woman scared and confused i kept it hidden and for years they would patch me up i'd rebuild myself up and fall apart again the feelings underlying it all would resurface and send me back down again. I lost most of my twentys and late teens to deppresion and for 2 years never left the house. Anyway the last breakdown i decided egnough was egnough and said what was driving it. Any way fast foward i came out to my mum (again for the 2nd time don't ask long story) at that point i was living in my home town i had friends had just completed a college course and apart from living a lie all was ok. My mum said "ok i'll support you but i cant if you stay here" so i found a flat exchange and moved 40 miles away leaving all my friends behind.
The flat i moved to is great 2 bedroom its huge i have a huge private garden for the dog and moved here with a plan as soon as i moved i tried to find a job and everything was going well, in december 2011 i fell ill and was taken to hospital and was told i needed a op soon i decided to put off getting a job until i had the op. As i moved somewhere new (a tiny village in cambridgeshire) with no job i found it impossible to meet anyone. Once i moved i approched my g.p oh forgot to say the last n.h.s trust messed up and told me they was refering me to charing cross then 3 months later said oh sorry you need to go to your g.p!!! the new g.ps where great and refered me to the local c.m.h.t i saw a shrink who diagonesd gender dysmorphia (since then my phyiscal problems have also showed i have kleinfielters syndrome which they somehow missed for 34 years?) and said it needed addressing and then done sweet f.a.
My mum who after i moved left all my friends and once found out about kleinfielters decided to actually look into stuff and take her head out of the sand and said she now understood and is paying for me to go private. When i had my o.p they relised they had misdiagnoised me and refered me to another specialist. In the mean time i've had 9 months of sitting indoors 24/7 my physical problem means it hurts me to drive so lost contact with my friends (as the only driver) and my deppresion and anxitey has came back (although this time irionically its not due to the gender issues thats being sorted) but now when i've asked for help for deppression they are saying we cant and won't do anything as its down to your gender dysmorphia and yet the dr even after 8 months and 3 visits has still not acted on what he said i needed, a referal to charing cross, and counsilling so he has identified that and done nothing and now the same team are saying i have deppresion and anxitey because i have gender dysmorphia and untill thats sorted i always will.
But thats being sorted privatly they saying its down to gender dysmorhia but then do nothing to address it. its almost like they are using my gender as a excuse to not treat me. What i'm experiancing now is nothing to do with my gender its been caused by a physical health problem and the fact im indoors 24/7 i have taken 3 overdoses in 3 months and yet they still say they are not equipped to deal with gender dysmorphia YET THATS NOT THE PROBLEM NOW and then don't bother to follow up with the referals they promised in march. I really do feel that they are discrimanting against me on the baisies of my gender condition what can i do?
