December 4, 2012 6:34 PM GMT
Hi Everyone. I was tring to figure out how to introduce myself. This is something I wrote a back in February of this year during one of my high points on this roller coaster ride. I think this is still true for the most part, except that slowly but surely I am moving to the point of really coming out to my family and beginning to live my life in a way that the outside world sees me for the girl I am on the inside. When I hit the low points I come back to this and it helps put me back on course.
I am Elizabeth
I am a beautiful person
Inside and outside
Even if my outside looks like someone else
I have just become aware
Of whom I really am
Who was always living inside of me
Who I kept hidden from the world
I love myself
I love who I am
I am a beautiful girl
Just waiting to shine to the world
I am just learning
To express myself
I am vulnerable
I have to keep myself safe
Part of me is old
But part is very young
My emotions swing back and forth
So please be patient with me
Change is constant
Change is good
I am already changing
Even if I am not ready
I can’t stay hidden anymore
But I can’t sacrifice my other life
I am not ready
To hurt those I love
If you can love me for what I am on the inside
If you can keep me safe
Then you can enter my world
And be my friend