So!
I`ve been thinking about the differences between us.
How i like to dress as a girl. How I enjoy the feel of girls
clothes & underwear. The style of girls shoes, & boots.
Yes I`m a transvestite. To say I get a sexual thrill out of it.
Is over simplifying it. If that was just the case. I`d have stopped
years ago. So there is a drive within me to dress as a girl. In my
teenage years, knowing nothing of other transvestites, & seeing
the likes of Danny La Rue. It confused & bothered me. As pretty much
any cross dressers in the public eye. Did also happen to be gay.
So obviously, not having the sophistication of thought, I like to think
I have today. I thought i may be gay. Which I discovered one drunken night,
that I wasn`t. All the same, the drive to dress. Both worried & confused me.
What the hell was I? I`m not gay, I love women, but only gays & weirdo`s
wanted to dress as a woman. It was actually my aunt & uncle, who gave me & my
new bride. A book of relationships, for young married couples. That helped a great
deal. It encouraged couple to accept & experiment, in role play & various forms of
dressing. (both he & she) My 1st wife, while not fan of me dressing did try, by allowing me
to wear underwear & stockings during lovemaking. It wasn`t a regular thing, & never escalated
to us being sisters, & me being dressed completely as a girl in her company. Anyway, we married very young both 18yr old. So it was never going to last, & although we still remain
friends. She is the only one of my loves ever to see me in female clothes. So now by this time I`d started reading books such as forum, & there certainly seemed to be a lot of men who dressed as women in the stories. they were usually sex driven stories. Also female domination,
where men were forced into womens clothes & humiliated. Which, although tittilating, still wasn`t me. (don`t get me wrong, if any of my loves had wanted to try this, I`d have jumped at the chance to try it at least) So again, what the hell was i? During the early 90s, I came across a mothly magazine. Called the "tranny guide" It had many features & articals, on transvestism. It also opened my eyes to the transexual community. There were places to go to buy womens clothes. Places to go dressed, & places to go to dress. It was for me a great mag. As it gave facts & figures, & varying opinions about the diversity of the transgender community. Which helped me come to terms with my hobby so to speak. I discovered, I was not so strange. Not so weird., Not a sexual devient. I was just a fella, who wanted for a number of reasons. To on occasion, dress as a girl. I do try to look as convincing as possible, when I do,
becouse I try my best at everything I do. I also came to terms, with the fact that I like me as me. Which is both Him & her! I`m happy in either role. I`m probably most comfortable as a boy, but I`m also exactly the same person as a girl. A RG friend of mine, who has me me as Daisy. Said "you are no different at all" Which I`m happy about. I love women, I love how they look, smell, their bodies, their clothes, shoes, & make up. For me these days, when I dress. It generally is to relieve stress, & just worry about the shallow things like. does my bum look big in this? (if only!) have I got my make up right, & I hope these boobs don`t fall out of the bra.
Finding this site, has been a god send for me. I`ve made friends here. Mainly TS girls, but also some lovely transvestites. We have all arrived here through different journeys. We all have different stories. I`m a transvestite, but my transvestism, isn`t always gonna be for the same reasons or emotions as others. I`m proud to be a member of GS, even though I`m never gonna be political about it or hate the Transgender haters. This is my journey, & I`m taking my own route. I`m here to make friends, & would love for you girls to share your journey or a much of it as you want to reveal. I`ve only given brief highlight, or low lights. Depending on perspective................ Love Daisy
Hi Daisy
We haven't spoken much and maybe that's a subconscious awareness of the difference between us.
But thanks for having the courage to post your item.
Your item has pushed more of my own identity into my foremind.
We are, you and I, different.
I am not a dresser, because I am driven more towards body scuplting.
My thing is to reveal my body from under my clothes, whether they are male clothes or female clothes.
I like to see my small perky breasts through close fitting tops and jumpers.
I am looking forward to wearing pants with a smooth crutch which will be possible after my orchiectomy.
So to me, clothes are arbitrary.
I have long seeked the female form, naked and 'aflame'
However, one thing we have in common is a positive regard for TGS, which is particularly due to the catalyst of a certain administrator.
Or maybe my perspective is coloured, and just blind to the contributions of others.
Anyway thanks for the post, my ideas were always there but you helped to put them into words.
Chalice