Are you talking about me Linda? . I am no oil painting and I am what you get in this world. I have no shame in me and no person ever should.
It can be I know very hard for some people to just say I am me and if you don't like it steer clear. That has to be my attitude in this world. My I don't give a sh*t system works. It works because I really don't . If any person in this world has a problem with me then to me it is their problem not mine. 99% of people just accept the fact I am who I am. The tiny minority who can't can cross the road or look the other way. They have the ability to not come into any form of contact with me what so ever. I have no need to force people to like me because my 99% Suits me fine , the tiny few are just arseh*les with no life.
I am not saying I walk around town or go out looking a mess , I just dress casual unless it is a special occassion. My make up takes me 10 minutes to apply and 3 minute on my hair and I am ready to go. I actually spend more time removing my make up! My face has to be clean or I will get spots. My favourite part of putting my bra on is taking it off! Depending on what I am wearing I prefer not to wear one.
This world is screwed up "I am not" I am just part of the screwed up human race.
Take care , Julia xx
I should have added Linda. If it was me that made you piss your knickers then I am pleased you had a good laugh.
In a nut shell I don't give a sh*t what anyone thinks of me.
Going back about three years I was in a studio in Manchester and Cat Deeley asked me to stand next to her. Why would she do that? She is 5ft 9 and I am 5ft 9 , she had 4 inch heels on and I had 4 inch heels on. At the time she was a size 10 and I was a size 10. She asked me to stand next to her because she said she always seems to be the tallest girl in the room. So we both stood there 6ft 1 inch tall side by side. Now she did not give a sh*t about having me at her side. If someone like her does not give a sh*t I think that is a perfect example. We should all just be proud of who we are full stop.
Julia xx
Whats the fixation with how I look, put yourself in my position as a kid, at school, life in general. Some will say they are glad they are what they are, me I allways wished I could have been ''normal'' Blessed??? some people just, don't get it.
Don't envy me, be happy for who you are,
How you look Crissie makes no odds to me you know that. Since way way back I was amazed by you not the image I could see.
There are some wonderfull people here and in this world. I say at times I look a wreck. I do not care about looks it is the personallity that counts. Some here have the personallity of a house brick.
I show respect to others that show it to me , Crissie has always shown me that. Her friendship to me is priceless . Her looks have never once come into that. No person here should ever envy her! You would never ever want to experience her childhood and what followed it. I say it over and over! Look past the image and who she is now as a woman who has inspired so many through her work and that includes me. I would not care if I could only see her foot , she is still the same wonderfull caring woman I am proud to call a friend .
Julia xx
Cristine, Shye (GS Admin) said:Whats the fixation with how I look, put yourself in my position as a kid, at school, life in general. Some will say they are glad they are what they are, me I allways wished I could have been e''normal'' Blessed??? some people just, don't get it.
Don't envy me, be happy for who you are,
My opinion! I would like to say and think we are all equal. Now here is the problem , in an ideal yes we would be but this is not an ideal world we live in.
Envy and jealousy are the same to me in my mind , would I want to look like Paris Hilton rather than me? I truly cannot answer that but one thing I can answer is I would not want her personallity. The way I see things in people is through their personallity not by the way they look. I cannot have a decent conversation with a moron. I was invited to lunch last week and after 20 minutes I said I am leaving! Why? Was the response , my response was you invited me to lunch and to catch up on things , well yes I did was the reponse. The person who invited me was messing about with her phone all of the time , we could not talk because as soon as I started to say something she picked her phone up and either responded to the sender or laughed at was was sent to her then saying to me what were you saying? Nothing just pretend I am not here then I was not there.
I am who I am I cannot change that , I look the way I look I can change that with surgery but I have no wish to have my face messed about with.
I have just been to a meeting , in that meeting were 3 genetic females and 2 genetic males , I was the odd one out. I was not the odd one out because I am Transexual I was the odd one out because of the way I was dressed. The 3 females all had the same corporate dress code on , the 2 males looked like they had been to the same place to buy their suits , even the same colour tie's. I have not got changed yet so when I have finished this I will upload some images of how I looked "Casual".
Now I bet when I left that room today the females were talking about my figure , it happens all of time. They were all in my opinion overweight yet I would give anything to have been born in the correct body like they were but , they abuse it. Going on a diet is a lot more easy than changing gender , you just control the arm that feeds the mouth. Now what were the 2 men thinking? Nice arse! That is what I get from men. I think my arse is normal but then looking at most females it is smaller than theirs , a lot smaller in a lot of cases but they don't have to have huge ones.
We are all unique! I cannot mention a name but one member of this site is so jealous of not just Crissie but even me. They have hounded me off this place in the past , they hounded both Crissie and myself in the forums. Crissie had the strength to stay here that is the way she is , I was not going to be put down everytime I logged in here by some moron I cannot see so I deleted my account , I thought about deleting again it last night untill Crissie and me started chating and it took my mind off it. That moron is even unique , the most unique moron I have come accross on the internet.
I share this website with some very special people , Crissie is my longest and closest friend here I can tell her anything. I hope that friendship only ends the day my heart stops beating. I think Briana is spot on "It is the person" Internal external upside down inside out , makes no difference how you see the person with your eyes it is how you see them from all ways.
Now I have not got a clue what I have just written it maybe fecking inside out for all I know . One thing I do know is I have not eaten today so I am now going to but before I do go and feed my tiny bum. Suzy you are not and never were ugly , you were and are unique. Me? I still and never will give a sh*t , I am who I am.
I will read this later and see if it made sense and correct any errors.
Take care , Julia xx
I can't believe this..... I posted the above at 5:19 BST. I put some food in that thing that cooks it then ate it . I then took a few pics sat down and next thing I know about 4 hours of my life just vanished. After a week of not getting much in the way of sleep age caught up with me. I think my body was saying , Julia you may not give a sh*t but you do have to stop and do things like eat and sleep.
Julia xx
So after a very long day and not much in the way of food or sleep last night or this week I am now going to add an image to this. This is just how I attended a business meeting today. As you can see I don't give a sh*t so why? They want my business and I had no reason to impress anyone. In a matter of weeks I will be 57 years old and mad people in this world still envy me or are jealous of me. In my own way I relate to Crissie because no person would want to have the life she has.
As for the way I look! No way am I anywhere close to beautiful . What I do have is confidence and pride but , they came with the transition because before I transitioned I had no confidence or pride.
I know this thread has gone way of topic but , the one thing I do give a sh*t about is my friends. I do not like putting it that way but that was in the title. I care very deeply about my friends and I will defend Crissie untill I die because of the way we relate gave us that very very special friendship.
As for the image I am now going to add , just to prove it was taken before I fell asleep I have not cropped the daylight coming through the window out of it. I have resized it to fit screen and that is all I have done to it. My opinion on it! I felt a wreck so I most likely look one and I never retouched my make-up and never do because again I realy really really do not give a sh*t.
If the moron I spoke of is reading this. I know you hide in shame , I know all about you , yes every detail. I will allow you to be jealous of me out of sheer pity because you are a pitiful excuse for a human being.
Anyone else please don't be , my life has been no walk in the park. Just be proud of who you are and the rest will follow.
Take care , Julia xx
SAM_0186_1[800x600].jpg . Means it is the 186th image taken with my Samsung camera.
I added this for you Crissie , I thought you meant you are running on empty too . xxxx
Madeleine I think the two words are partners. The meanings are to similar to seperate. It depends on the reasons the words are being used. All I know which ever way you look at it no person should envy or be jealous of anyone , more so who we have been talking about here , it must do her head in.
Julia.
We all appreciate lovely comments, but I seem to be the centre of a lot of public outpourings of admiration. I just feel uncomfortable and because of somethings I have done in my life, undeserving. it also detracts from why I am here at GS.
I understand that Crissie. I am feeling very uncomfortable about this as I said above it must do your head in. My part in this? The thread was started because of a comment I made on the home page which had nothing to do with you personally. I know why you are here at GS and always have done , I do wonder at times why I am here though. Maybe I should have stayed out of this but I do feel like your unofficial Mother at times. I know you do not need protecting but others do need to understand you are not just a picture. Not just in this thread but many times over the years this happens , all it takes is one comment about you and an avalanche starts. I am taking a break in a couple of weeks on the coast. Both you and Cass are welcome , accomadation all on me.
Take care , your friend , Julia xxx
Cristine, Shye (GS Admin) said:We all appreciate lovely comments, but I seem to be the centre of a lot of public outpourings of admiration. I just feel uncomfortable and because of somethings I have done in my life, undeserving. it also detracts from why I am here at GS.
Julia Ford said:Madeleine I think the two words are partners. The meanings are to similar to seperate. It depends on the reasons the words are being used. All I know which ever way you look at it no person should envy or be jealous of anyone , more so who we have been talking about here , it must do her head in.
Julia.