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I popped over to see a couple of good friends of mine, Danique and Carren, a very down to earth couple in my opinion. As she has stated in her blog, Dani is post op by about 6 weeks and I was suprised to see her up and about and so active, she's a credit to herself.
Since I last saw them they've both been under the knife for various things and are looking very good as a result. I know they can't wait to get on with things after everything has been sorted.
I must admit to being very jealous of them too. I would so dearly love to be full time myself but with young children and a loving partner who doesn't want to be a lesbian(!), it's not on my 'to do' list, at least not as things stand, who knows what the future holds though. I could go for it I know, but at what price? I made a commitment when I married and again when I had children and I honestly believe that such commitments should be honoured. Call me old fashioned if you want to, I just call myself deeply frustrated.
However, this is not to say that I am not happy, because I am. I may not be full time as such but I certainly come across plenty of people who think I am, which of course is a great ego boost. Perhaps that's why I am not going crazy, I may not have it all, but the majority of joe public think I do, and I'm not going to correct them am I?
It's a classic 'glass half full/half empty' situation, and I like to think that not only is my glass half full, but someone will be along any moment to top it up!
Nikki x
