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Girls, don't be surprised if I don't come back for a while because I'm put away. Maybe an asylum is the best place.
First of all, I am choking again. My asthma is coming back full force. My breathing is more labored than ever. She told me that if I don't make a doctor's appointment she's filing for divorce.
But I am also doing something else. Every now and then I sleep walk. When I do so, I say things that I would never dream of saying ever. Last Saturday I did something like that, calling her a nasty name and accusing her of the unthinkable (neither of which are true). I didn't know I did that until later when she told me. Apparently just now I just did something else in my sleep, and my face was being slapped to wake me up. It woke me up, and in disgrace I left the room.
I have no idea what is wrong, only that I did something wrong. This is why I am a psycho. I know I'll find out later, but I cannot face them. I am sleepy and fully aware of myself right now. I will sleep in the back in the cold room, away from them.
God, do I hate myself. Why do I do this?
