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I'm writing again so soon because it's Friday night once more and I'm still not home yet. I guess I'm writing to relieve the loneliness. I sent out quite a few e-mails today to some of you. I'm just so alone. I miss my family.
Met with the new therapist today. I like her. She was really cool about the TG issue, even when I told her I might be TS. That hour flew by in a heartbeat. I see her again Monday. I'm going to like this.
I forgot to mention that I went to my "hometown" on Monday. Well, Oak Park borders on Chicago, which is where I'm living now, and it's not exactly far from here. I went into Transformations, which caters to the TG community. I saw some of the cutest red skirts. Once I get some money I'm treating myself. That's the place I mentioned once before where I can get a makeover.
My wife made a comment the other day again about us talking soon. She said "the future is unwritten," meaning she's isn't filing for divorce or anything like that. I guess I'm supposed to straighten out my head and get a job. Reasonable enough. I'm also cool with her business trip in two days. I'm holding on to that day when we do talk. Tomorrow I'll see my daughter for a few hours. Whether or not my wife goes to her soccer game when I'm there remains to be seen. She did the last time, which I wrote about before, but if she doesn't, oh well. My friend tried to wrangle a few extra hours of visitation time, but for valid reasons we can't do it. We're going to try for some time on Sunday. I'm not counting on it, though. My daughter is being watched by a friend while my wife is gone, and I'm sure they have plans. I'm okay with that. I have a gift for her - a Halloween Barbie doll.
What you girls need to know, or remember, however, is that I made some mistakes which caused this situation. Had I just left on my own for a few weeks all this might not be going on now. I know I've mentioned this a few months back. I was too stubborn to go and leave things alone for a while. No, I'm not the fault of everything, but I have some amends to make.
But earlier my friend was rather belligerent about things, including the TG issue. While he did apologize later for being so gruff, it still wasn't fun. I have to remember he's going through his own little issues now. But this weekend loneliness is too much. I can't even have a damn beer to relax at night.
Oh, by the way, those Mormon dudes wanted to come back today. I called and left them a message saying I wouldn't be around. Oh, dear........
Has anyone gotten Anneliese's number for me yet? I'm ready to surrender myself to her. Really, she can take and use me all she wants, I won't mind. I'll be a little slut if that's what she wants.
