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The weekend was all right. Except for some time on Saturday, nothing to scream about.
My friend once again started hammering away about my being TG, thinking I do it just for masturbation purposes. He sure has a fixation on that, and I told him so. What do I care? I do care, however, when he's perpetually late. Because of his dawdling I had only just over three hours with my daughter on Saturday. Any time is good time, though, and I do appreciate those efforts. My daughter "bought" me a small pumpkin and helped me carve it. She even drew the face on it. She called it "Pumpky." Then we watched "That's So Raven," not realizing that if I split from my wife that Anneliese will be her next mommy!
Uh huh. Yeah. Right. Anneliese Van Der Pol is just dying for me!
But, when they all left on Saturday, to be gone for about 5 hours, I got some beer, and enjoyed myself with those and going outside for a few smokes. I did accomplish some academic work. The thing is I felt relaxed. Especially since it was an overcast, cool day. By the time they returned all ciggies and beer was off my breath.
Yesterday, though, I was in a deep funk. I offered to bake a homemade lasagna dinner for everyone, and the reviews for my cooking were once again stellar. But I should have been at home. It was a rainy day, and I so much wished I had some wine for both the cooking and relaxing since I love those sort of Sundays. No way! I would have never been allowed to have anything like that. Also, my wife had to leave for that trip yesterday, and I'm dealing with that extremely well. As I said, it is her first business trip since our separation, and at first it made me nervous. Still, I should have been at home with my family, especially watching my daughter. I pretty much kept to myself all day, and when I wasn't quiet I was disciplining his undisciplined kids. I wanted to talk to my daughter, but I knew I couldn't. While my wife would have agreed in advance, I didn't want her to think I was pulling a stunt by calling my kid when she was out of town. I found out that she's really not telling anyone about the separation. She's telling them that I'm out of town for the time being. Which is the truth, really, just not all of it. That actually pleased me, and it tells me how we'll be talking again soon.
Got another therapy session today, and just waiting on phone calls.
