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Posted by Jessie Hart
September 30, 2010
Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs
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If I can quote "Bob Seger's Hollywood Nights" tune-"he knew right then
he was too far from home. He was too far from home." Then relate it to
losing your male identity, I would. Wait! I just did!
The reason I did quote the song (basically about a beautiful California
blond and a Midwestern boy lost in her charms) is that I remember
defining moments when I didn't want to go back home to my male self.
I know many of you girls have always known you were just that-a girl.
Many of us however, did not have that luxury. I went through the first
30 years or so of my life fighting and giving in to my female urges.
I knew I could never go home happened to me when this Midwestern boy moved to the NYC area.
Within two months, I enjoyed two defining moments that would set my life on a female path.
The first was a trans "mixer" of sorts I attended on Long Island . The
real lady at the door wouldn't let me in until I proved I was a guy. "No
single real women allowed!"
The second was a Halloween party I attended with a couple friends at
work. It just so happened that one of them had two other tall female
friends that were dressed as sleazy as me! To this day I remember
walking across an intersection in a mini dress and heels WITH 3 other
real females. What an evening! The girls insisted I dance with them and
even a couple of their boyfriends.
I knew then, I could never go home-even if I did move back to the Midwest.
If I was a betting girl (not) I bet you girls have defining moments too!
I welcome any stories you might have, when you knew you could never go home!