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Not being as full of anger & selfpity as I was yesterday when I left the hospital. I had to go back & pick up some things. I drove along Jefferson Ave which runs along Lake St Claire. It's not one of the great lakes but you can't see across. It was a realy nice day & I noticed how calm the water was, Beautifull!! The homes along there are very upscale(BIG). The landscaping is awsome. But I didn't evan see it before. I knew there was water & houses but I didn't care. I was so full of ME I couldn't see the world. I can get so hung up on me & mine I miss out on life.
I met a girl while I was there. 2 realy. The first was a self proclaimed victim. Her life sucked because of other people. She had no responceability in it. Her name I don't remember. The other came out as I was sitting on a bench & said hi my name is Madonna. As I was waiting for the guys in white coats to find her she & I started talking. I realised she was for real. Came to find out we were both recovering addicts. But I don't know what to do. She's only been off drugs about 2 months. She was honest with me & seemed to like me. We spent a lot of time on the phone talking. But I don't want to try to start something with a girl not knowing if she might go out again. I will call her I won't just treat her like that. I want her to know it's my fear & not that she isn't worth it. Iv'e been there right now that matters. I can help her or she can hurt me. Both outcomes are real. What to do what to do.
