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I started to call this Whine Time. Since thats what I'm realy doing. I realy hate feeling selfpity. Thats why I haven't posted for a couple of days.
I think what's bugging me the most is that I can't realy care for myself. I want to go home but I can barely lift the coffee pot. I can't pick things up off the floor, do my own wash, or dishes. I don't realy feel sick but I'm so weak. I get tired so easy. My buts getting sore from sitting allday. As they say in AA I'm sick & tired of being sick & tired.
I have 3 new skirts at home I want to get. I could be wearing them during the day while I'm here alone. There still in the plastic wrap they came in.
I lost my wallet. Don't ask how cause I can't say. I've never lost it before or a key. But I did a good job of it. So now I get to make a lot of calls to cancel credit cards & go get a new ID.
What all this comes down to is I just want to be better so I can get on with my life. I will get better & I will get back to my life. I just want it now. I've been home les than 2 weeks after a month in the hospital, 2 of those weeks I was to sick to evan wake up, & was unable to breath on my own. So I guess I'm were I'm supposed to be or maybe evan ahead. I'm just feeling sorry for myself & I realy don't like that.
What I am gratefull for is my family for being here & all the help they've given me. Also Tweb for this blog. Allowing me to air my little dumb complaints. reading peoples post letting me get out of myself. Meredith for letting me talk allmost everyday on the phone. Wendy Larson will be getting a call soon. Anna if you send me a number I would love to talk with you. My brother -inlaw gave me a stack of phone cards so it wont cost eather of us if I do the calling.
All the girls here have been so wonderfull, THANK YOU!!
