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Feeling Frustrated

  • Posted by Karen Brad May 6, 2011 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs #  #psych  2,732 views
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    As I sit here this morning I feel a bit down that I can't be me. I'm supposed to meet some people for breakfast this morning & have to do it in male mode, which sucks. I finely got my nailpolish on right, not a dab out of place & an awsome color. But it has to come off.

    The reality is that I can never really go out as Karen. All the clothes & makeup on earth couldn't make me look right. After all the operations I had in 06 I have a huge gut with a scar as big as the palm of my hand right in the middle of it.

    Evan with out that at 52 it seems to late to start. If I would have had internet 30yrs ago I would have not felt so alone & so afraid to be the girl I want so badly to be. 

    I'm still alone. The net & being here at GS is not a real substitute for real friends. 

    Don't get me wrong I've met some real great ladies here. But my laptop can't hold a hand or wipe a tear.

    So I'll just keep feeling sad & go on with life as it is.

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  • Alice Miles I feel for you too Karen. I agree totally about the Internet. And the number of times I have had to rush to get changed because I have spent too long dressed, or put off changing back. But trynot to feel too unhappy or frustrated. We live in a society...  more
  • jan jefferies Karen,We come in all sizes and shapes. Please ... Don't give up. With the internet it's possible you could find a support group near you.52 isn't too late to start,I'm 52 as well. Found a real nice group here in Portland,Or. that goes out weekly.And a...  more
  • Doanna Highland Karen, You are never too old to feel good about yourself! Many GG's (ovarians) have big scars. There are many support groups out there just waiting for you hun. The local Psychologists would be able to give you more details about what "Gender oriented"...  more
  • Mandy Watts Thats really sad Karen, are there not any LGBT groups or bars near you?