Recent Entries

• Thoughts about job interviews

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  Watched loads of responses to ch4 transsexual summer – one of the main subjects seems to be the way drew got treated at the bridal shop job interview – that reinforces why i went for my recent interview in stealth as a guy – but then that has bitten me to – but none the less would i have got the job...

• Awash in a sea of feelings

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  Awash in a sea of feelings For months i have felt a sea of sadness followed by waves of contentment and happiness wash over me and wash away like an ebbing tide – if you screamed at me i would burst in to tears and cry and cry i would feel every word like the sharpest scalpel , when i was yelled at ...

• First night out as Danielle

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  Authors note: up till 2005 i went by the name danielle about because i had only ever been about 70% full time i decided to change this name for Elizabeth Rebecca Martin, i do miss it but i wanted to leave my past behind. Jay was the name i used in security circle along with a different surname. SO s...

• Abuse 199x -> 2000 in manchester

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  It had been a hard night on the doors , i had come home with a flesh wound from flying glass, a bottle i had just avoided across my right arm, not so bad as to need stitches, a strip of black and a compound dressing had stopped the flow of blood and it had healed but with gaping edges so a dot of su...

• The Early Days at work.

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  I reached over first the Etrofem, then the T-Bloker yuk ! , then the gel and the progesterone 2 glasses of water later the taste starts to leave my mouth. I pad into the kitchen 1 then 2 cups of strong chocolaty coffee finally wake me up , then comes the evil stroke of the razor blade deeper and dee...

• Brighton Abuse

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  Show us your cock honey ! , Hay babe people like you are freeks!, You're the most camp gay man ive ever seen babe [im there in a dress and im a women and the person making the comment knows it]people like you make me sick! This is just some of the abuse ii have faced in one of the most LBGT friendly...

• Swimming

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  The pebbles hurt between my toes , the wind cut across the beach chilling me to the bone. In the distance i could see the line of brave souls surfing the burnt out pier, they bobbed like black seals waiting of the perfect set. I folded my heavy jeans that moments before had slid from my freshly mois...

• panic attack !

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  She had said what she had said – i had done what i had done , i had been disobedient ,  i had forced control away from her, i had held her i had been dominant with her – i had wanted to show her that i could be there for her to that i could still be the person who protected her who held her , not ju...

• The first hormone pill after a break

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  The tears rolled hot and fast , My body shuck , The cramps in my tummy felt like they would tear me apart, My mind was filled with grey mist , even the most basic strand of thought turned to a mist of confusion. My breathing was ragged and rapid, Sweat freezing cold sweat cursed down over my brows ,...

• Real time diary of a night out

  by willow katie martin October 23, 2014
  Stuff i jotted down in facebook on the move… IT WAS A AMAZING NIGHT -> met some really nice guys called peter and jamie in the queens arms got bought a drink yah ! , danced Then to the bull dog got chatted up by about 10 blokes -> shocked the hell out of a couple of girls who thought i was GG ...