Religion and Parent Problems

• Posted by Kris McKinley July 18, 2017 #ftm  #  #  #religion  #parents  891 views
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  Been a while since I've blogged/ranted on here, but figure this is probably the best place to say this. I've been sort of halfway out for a while now meaning I've told my mom I'm transgender and cut my hair short, but I still can't tell my dad. For those who don't know, I come from a very religious (Baptist) family so getting a sex change is pretty much the worst sin I could possibly commit besides killing myself according to my parents and what I've been brought up to believe. (Not saying I agree that it's wrong). I keep trying to come out further and talk about taking T-shots, but whenever I do, my mom suddenly goes backwards and gets embarrassed by the whole idea. She says she's supportive and wouldn't disown me, but she has the hardest time calling me her son and won't let go that I once dated guys in middle school. (I've told her being gay and trans are not the same thing, but she still brings it up). I just can't help but wonder and worry how much worse my dad will be and a part of me, in all honesty, thinks if I were to never get the change and just "tough this out" he'd actually be proud of me for once in my life. I know, that sounds really dramatic, but I've been trying to get him to not look at me as a "disappointment" pretty much all my life and having Asperger's hasn't helped. For those who don't know, I am trying to self-publish and become an author. I plan on writing a story called Obsession and it's based on me and something that happened. I will also be talking about being transgender and how my relationship with my dad is/was in this story. The reason I bring this up - I worry if I don't take T-shots and get the change, the trans community and others who read my book won't see me as a serious transgender? Part of me wonders if I should wait till I'm old and my parents are gone to be completely honest... Not sure what I'm going to do, but any support or suggestions are greatly appreciated. Thanks.