Infrequency

• Posted by Rachel de Blanc June 7, 2008 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs 1,017 views
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  Infrequency
  
  Personally, I think that Trannyweb feels a little bit like an old transistor radio.
  There are times when I can hear and clearly understand the content, times when the messages fade in and out, and times when everything said sounds distorted. So I can feel attuned with the programme one day and distanced from it another.
  
  Perhaps it’s not the transmission which is at fault, but the ability of the receiver to pick things up..
  
  Because of my position, I can only read about some of the experiences that girls here are going through. I can yearn for the same, but I cannot truly understand. This means that my ability to contribute is sometimes quite limited. I would like circumstances to change, but I suspect they may not or cannot. It’s my call.
  
  There is a chance of course, that I’ll be pushed to the edge. I think I can see it, I’m moving closer to it. Perhaps circumstances will push me to the abyss and I’ll be released from this stationary position to a more liberated freedom, where I’m let out and I’m able to express everything that I have contained for years?
  
  Until such clarity is reached, I’ll just have to keep tuning in under the bed-sheets and dream that I’m in another place.