Tightening Nets

• Posted by Rachel de Blanc January 25, 2009 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs 1,173 views
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  As my SO informed me that she would be out on Friday evening, I returned home at pace keen to take a long relaxing shower, a quick facial and to simply relax and unwind. Fortunately I had ‘un-dressed’ and was preparing a meal when at least 3 hours prior to the time I expected her to arrive, she returned home.
  
  This was one of my closest calls. (interesting how closet and closest are so similar..) and left me anxious, jumpy and concerned about tell tale signs of make-up removal.
  
  This is all so awful, the deceit, the anxiety the duplicated mixed-up me. She doesn’t deserve it and I cannot divorce myself from who I am. Such a shame that life doesn’t come with a restart button marked ‘female’ which I would press now.
  
  Anyhow. If that suggests that I’m a bit down, you’re wrong – I’m very pleased to say. Life’s good, it’s just that I’m not living quite the life I’d like to be, and that’s just not quite fair.