Recent Entries

• Gender issues and depression

  by Kari Johnson April 25, 2009
  I feel to some degree that I have so much depression because of my gender issues.  Why can't I just be happy being the gender I was born with?  Life would be so much easier.  Is it really just another case of man wanting the forbidden fruit?  I don't know but I for some reason believe that I would b...

• Not much going on

  by Kari Johnson April 21, 2009
  I really haven't been in touch lately and it is only because I have been just living daily life.  My transgender issues do not lessen with time they seem to grow larger when I have no outlet for expresssing them.  I have come to realize that I have pretty much given up on ever being able to transiti...

• Today I really want to be female.

  by Kari Johnson March 4, 2009

• Do you girls have regular dressing times?

  by Kari Johnson February 24, 2009
  I was wondering if there are those of you who have regular times when you get dressed?  Being married with kids I don't get nearly enough time if any at all to dress up.  I am really not that good at doing my own makeup at all and I certainly don't get time to practice.  I do wear panties if I want ...

• Another one down

  by Kari Johnson February 17, 2009
  I made it through another week. I reaqlly really want to get dressed up to the nines, but I don't have the time or opportunity. I suppose that is the way it is for a lot of us.I feel so dull. Karen

• Saturday morning in my ugg furry boots

  by Kari Johnson February 7, 2009
  Well I made it through another week.  I am here sitting on the couch and I am ok with things right now.  I guess that is about as good as it can get for any of us is to be ok with our lot in life.  Of all things I am thankful for my cornflower blue ugg fluff mama boots.  They are actually some of th...

• Starting another week not feeling too good

  by Kari Johnson January 26, 2009
  Well I have made it to the start of another week.  I wanted to post because I am starting to get that depressed mood and mindset again.  I don't know how to keep it away but as I stated before I have listed this site as a resource of help for my suicidal thoughts and tendencies.  I need someone to t...

• Home alone..almost

  by Kari Johnson January 18, 2009
  I at home alone for the first time in a long while.  Well not quite alone.  My three year old is sleeping in his bedroom and my eight year old is down at the neighbors.  I am just here REALLY wanting to be all femmed up but I don't really have the time to do that not to mention I wouldn't want my th...

• Back after hospitalization suicide attempt

  by Kari Johnson January 12, 2009
  Thanks to the kindness of strangers and family members I am still here.  I haven't been around as I was hospitalized for my latest suicide attempt and my laptop computer died.  Well at least I didn't.  Katie took the time to call my wife and let her know what was going on with me from my last blog e...

• feeling blue suicidal

  by Kari Johnson November 29, 2008
  I am sad again. My ability to maintain a relationship with my wife is strained.  I think that she believes me to be in a phase that I will pass through.  She caught me yesterday witha hormone patch on my abdomen and was pissed.  told me I was throwing her away as well as the children.  I am consider...