Recent Entries

• A new hope?

  by Meredith Newton December 6, 2004
  What a weekend.  As for my current state of mind, I had two breakthroughs over the weekend regarding my insecurities.  I came to some realizations and now I can really move forward. That means I'll stop making stupid comments at my wife about some things that only hurt her feelings.  ...

• Have fun this weekend

  by Meredith Newton December 3, 2004
  Since I don't think I'll be back around until Monday (I hope not!) here's my weekend wishes for you.  Today should be interesting.  Tomorrow is a full day.  Breakfast with Santa, then something at my kid's school, then friends of mine are having an open house. I was getting mad at thi...

• This might finally be the end

  by Meredith Newton December 2, 2004
  There's been nothing but one problem after another these past few days.  This morning we had a horrible fight.  For only the second time in all our years of marriage did I remove my wedding ring and leave the house without it. While I'm hoping it will all settle down, it's finally looking ...

• Who knows?

  by Meredith Newton December 1, 2004
  The interview today went okay.  They were polite but they violated one of my biggest pet peeves.  If you know my background and have reservations as to if it would fit in with the job, THEN DON'T INTERVIEW ME!!!!!  They knew I have a PhD, lots of publications, etc., and it seemed to b...

• I hope to get this all resolved

  by Meredith Newton November 30, 2004
  I won't go on about the usual BS today.  I do have things to take care of, including preparing for that hot interview I have tomorrow.  I better get something, and soon, because the school terms are about to end and I will need to bring in money. I just didn't think that I would actually f...

• Take away this ball and chain

  by Meredith Newton November 27, 2004
  Wow, I love Social Distortion..... Still not well.  She came with me to my shrink appointment yesterday. What I would give to be good. Today is a gloomy day here.  I love it! Girls, I'll be okay.  Thanks for your well wishes.  I referred to myself as "Mere" yesterday a few times....

• Suddenly there is hope

  by Meredith Newton November 24, 2004
  Girls, I apologize for my behavior.  Maria has to bear the brunt of this because I pester her constantly.  And, JJ, I will never forget what you said to me that night.  No, I don't want to pack it in.  I'm too strong  to give up.  Yet sometimes I feel everyone would be ...

• Spiraling out of control

  by Meredith Newton November 22, 2004
  This was a horrid weekend. Once again I acted the total jerk, letting everything get to me - finances, insecurities, fear over losing everything - you name it.  That means I barely slept last night and today is a marathon day for me.  I have my two regular classes then a night class. ...

• Have a great weekend

  by Meredith Newton November 19, 2004
  I don't know if I'll be back until Monday.  Had a good session with my shrink today, the first in 3 weeks.  I do feel better.  Now I gotta go home and put out some fires.  I think it can be done. We're going to be alone tomorrow night and I can't wait!  Maybe we'll do that o...

• Who knows when I can post again?

  by Meredith Newton November 18, 2004
  Hopefully our computer problems at home can be fixed soon. I hate having to wait so long to post anything, whether a blog or a forum comment. This morning I got to open the bathroom door while my wife was taking a shower. Seeing her through the glass, well, let's just say that if it wasn't "that tim...