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  • 20 Nov 2008
    Finances went from bad to worse.  It's going to be tough for the next few weeks.  For the first time in a long time my account is in negative numbers!  But, I have food in the house, and enough gas in the car to get to work.  I get paid tomorrow, and already a big chunk of that is gone.  But, I can frugally.  I don't need much.I have yet to hear about the one major promotion at work.  I did put in for a temporary Facilitator II spot, knowing full well I would not get it.  I felt I was owed at least the courtesy of an interview, and when the hiring Senior Coordinator told me she would not be interviewing me I kinda got mad at her.  I told her "Don't think I'll be jumping for joy the next time you need me to bail you out."  And I do bail her out at least twice a week.  I also reminded her I learned the U-505 after only two days of training, the coal mine after less than one.  While I felt I had a right to be slighted, I did not have the right to act like that.  I went to Kate and she understood.  We're still friends.But I settled down. My Senior Coordinator agreed that the wording of temporary spot was misleading.  But then he told me about the other job I was going for, which is an Education Coordinator.  Without my asking he called the hiring manager and gave me a glowing recommendation.  It is a better job than the F2 spot.  Carlita told me she would get mad at me if I didn't apply for it.  All the leaders in my department agreed it would be sad if I left but that this other job is better for me.  Right now, I'm just waiting to see what will happen.  Not getting excited either way.We have this new exhibit called "Fast Forward."  Upper management wants to see how it is facilitated, and take one big guess who they asked to do it?You noticed Josie didn't mention me in her last blog.  She was a little mad at me.  We had a few problems, all of which have been resolved.  One of the things that she says hurts her is she feels I do not take proper care of myself.  I have to make an effort to be more dilligent with my physical and mental health.  Why am I saying this?  Because while we have a great relationship, we are still human.  We are doing just fine.  Don't worry, Lilienne, you are still maid of honor!I am keeping optimistic.  Hell, I've been through worse than this!
    468 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Finances went from bad to worse.  It's going to be tough for the next few weeks.  For the first time in a long time my account is in negative numbers!  But, I have food in the house, and enough gas in the car to get to work.  I get paid tomorrow, and already a big chunk of that is gone.  But, I can frugally.  I don't need much.I have yet to hear about the one major promotion at work.  I did put in for a temporary Facilitator II spot, knowing full well I would not get it.  I felt I was owed at least the courtesy of an interview, and when the hiring Senior Coordinator told me she would not be interviewing me I kinda got mad at her.  I told her "Don't think I'll be jumping for joy the next time you need me to bail you out."  And I do bail her out at least twice a week.  I also reminded her I learned the U-505 after only two days of training, the coal mine after less than one.  While I felt I had a right to be slighted, I did not have the right to act like that.  I went to Kate and she understood.  We're still friends.But I settled down. My Senior Coordinator agreed that the wording of temporary spot was misleading.  But then he told me about the other job I was going for, which is an Education Coordinator.  Without my asking he called the hiring manager and gave me a glowing recommendation.  It is a better job than the F2 spot.  Carlita told me she would get mad at me if I didn't apply for it.  All the leaders in my department agreed it would be sad if I left but that this other job is better for me.  Right now, I'm just waiting to see what will happen.  Not getting excited either way.We have this new exhibit called "Fast Forward."  Upper management wants to see how it is facilitated, and take one big guess who they asked to do it?You noticed Josie didn't mention me in her last blog.  She was a little mad at me.  We had a few problems, all of which have been resolved.  One of the things that she says hurts her is she feels I do not take proper care of myself.  I have to make an effort to be more dilligent with my physical and mental health.  Why am I saying this?  Because while we have a great relationship, we are still human.  We are doing just fine.  Don't worry, Lilienne, you are still maid of honor!I am keeping optimistic.  Hell, I've been through worse than this!
    Nov 20, 2008 468
  • 02 Jan 2006
    Yes, you read that right.  She corrupted me.  Now that I'm pregnant we have to get married. Although this is a sad morning, I'm still going to remain upbeat.  I'll be leaving Karen Brad's in about 2 hours.  This has been the best weekend.  For the first time ever I could fully be who I am.  My new piccies here should reflect that.  We had a great time.  It was so much fun.  I cooked New Years Eve dinner.  There were stuffed mushrooms, cajun potatoes, seasoned steak, carmelized onions, YUM!!!!!  I think I tried to set a world record for beer and ciggies, though (Bad Mere!).  But this is one of the few times I've been able to relax and forget about all the nonsense in my life. I did a lot of chatting online with you girls.  Especially with Kendra and the webcam (Kendra, you little tart!).  We got into a leg showing competition one night. While I do concede her legs are a little skinnier than mine (not much!), I think I made a good showing.  Karen here couldn't believe what she was seeing.  Here I was, this kind, sweet, unspoiled girl, and now I'm a trampy whore (Kendra, I love you!).  The funny thing is, the LBD situation was never really discussed.  It was so nice to spend so much time with her.  Every time I said I needed to go to sleep we wound up talking for another half hour.  We just couldn't say goodbye.  With all the MSS and LBD jokes aside, Kendra is very special to me.  And she knows it. As Karen here just said while I was typing, for someone who's never been seen before I sure showed a lot!  Oh, I am damned to hell, aren't I? I have that 5 1/2 hour train ride back to reflect on all this.  What a wonderful weekend.  One I will never forget.  Karen opened her home to me.  I just hope I was a decent guest. But now reality returns, and I'll be out of reach quite a bit since I have no real computer access.  I have a life to start leading, projects to complete, and a career to establish somehow.  Lilienne told the chatroom here that this is the year I'm going to blossom.  I promise to do so. Happy New Year to all my TW sisters.
    455 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Yes, you read that right.  She corrupted me.  Now that I'm pregnant we have to get married. Although this is a sad morning, I'm still going to remain upbeat.  I'll be leaving Karen Brad's in about 2 hours.  This has been the best weekend.  For the first time ever I could fully be who I am.  My new piccies here should reflect that.  We had a great time.  It was so much fun.  I cooked New Years Eve dinner.  There were stuffed mushrooms, cajun potatoes, seasoned steak, carmelized onions, YUM!!!!!  I think I tried to set a world record for beer and ciggies, though (Bad Mere!).  But this is one of the few times I've been able to relax and forget about all the nonsense in my life. I did a lot of chatting online with you girls.  Especially with Kendra and the webcam (Kendra, you little tart!).  We got into a leg showing competition one night. While I do concede her legs are a little skinnier than mine (not much!), I think I made a good showing.  Karen here couldn't believe what she was seeing.  Here I was, this kind, sweet, unspoiled girl, and now I'm a trampy whore (Kendra, I love you!).  The funny thing is, the LBD situation was never really discussed.  It was so nice to spend so much time with her.  Every time I said I needed to go to sleep we wound up talking for another half hour.  We just couldn't say goodbye.  With all the MSS and LBD jokes aside, Kendra is very special to me.  And she knows it. As Karen here just said while I was typing, for someone who's never been seen before I sure showed a lot!  Oh, I am damned to hell, aren't I? I have that 5 1/2 hour train ride back to reflect on all this.  What a wonderful weekend.  One I will never forget.  Karen opened her home to me.  I just hope I was a decent guest. But now reality returns, and I'll be out of reach quite a bit since I have no real computer access.  I have a life to start leading, projects to complete, and a career to establish somehow.  Lilienne told the chatroom here that this is the year I'm going to blossom.  I promise to do so. Happy New Year to all my TW sisters.
    Jan 02, 2006 455
  • 03 Mar 2005
    My "second" school wanted to know why I wasn't able to take this training to do special types of on-line courses. They're really hot for me to teach these other history courses.  At this rate I might almost be full-time with them, although I won't officially be recognized as such. What I do like is that they have faith in me, and the extra cash will certainly help.  Yesterday I applied for the full-time spot at my main school, so officially I'm up for two tenure track jobs that start in the fall. Things have very much calmed down around here. The other day, though, I made a joke that I was going to wear my short black dress (not from Kendra's closet) to the interview.  The joke wasn't very much appreciated but no issue was made over it. Today and/or tomorrow I'm going to get my teaching demonstration together. I'm going to do my presentation on the 1919 trial of The Masses, a radical magazine whose members were indicted during World War I for violating U.S. federal laws that said one could not oppose the war. I tried to reach out to my sister-in-law through a message since I'll be passing through her area.  I received a very lukewarm response. So I'm just going to Georgia, do what I have to, and head home. But something has to give because we're heading to my mother-in-law's for Easter, and if we're all going to be together there has to be some respect. One last bit of shameless self-promotion: My second proposal was very well received by the Acquisitions Editor. It's looking good!
    490 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • My "second" school wanted to know why I wasn't able to take this training to do special types of on-line courses. They're really hot for me to teach these other history courses.  At this rate I might almost be full-time with them, although I won't officially be recognized as such. What I do like is that they have faith in me, and the extra cash will certainly help.  Yesterday I applied for the full-time spot at my main school, so officially I'm up for two tenure track jobs that start in the fall. Things have very much calmed down around here. The other day, though, I made a joke that I was going to wear my short black dress (not from Kendra's closet) to the interview.  The joke wasn't very much appreciated but no issue was made over it. Today and/or tomorrow I'm going to get my teaching demonstration together. I'm going to do my presentation on the 1919 trial of The Masses, a radical magazine whose members were indicted during World War I for violating U.S. federal laws that said one could not oppose the war. I tried to reach out to my sister-in-law through a message since I'll be passing through her area.  I received a very lukewarm response. So I'm just going to Georgia, do what I have to, and head home. But something has to give because we're heading to my mother-in-law's for Easter, and if we're all going to be together there has to be some respect. One last bit of shameless self-promotion: My second proposal was very well received by the Acquisitions Editor. It's looking good!
    Mar 03, 2005 490
  • 16 Dec 2004
    It was one year ago yesterday that I joined TW.  Hopefully after the first of the year I can FINALLY be a full member.  But what a year it's been!  I won't go into my usual whining today, I promise! The first friends I made here were Nena and Mariette.  I remember last Christmas when I was soooooo depressed.  All I wanted to do was get online and chat with them.  Those two really helped pull me out of the dumps. Then along came Christina (who also helped me with her kind words) and Stephanie Jones, then Tina Louise, Kendra, Delila, and so on (If I'm leaving anyone out I apologize).  With each day we all became so much closer.  Maria would soon enter my life and become one of my dearest and closest friends, along with Tressa, then JJ, Mandy, Clair, Wendy, Cerys, Champagne, Julia Legs, Fay, Ziggy, Emma, Claude, Laura, Tiina, and the list goes on.  Again, I apologize if I omitted your name.  It is not intentional. It was TW that gave me the courage to finally come out to some people.  I can finally speak about Meredith at home, although not too much!  TW has been a real lifesaver.  As I wrote in one of my first blogs, I felt like I was a human.  I've burdened you all with too much, and I hope I have at least given you something back in return.  God/Buddha/Krishna bless Katie!!!!! Girls, one of these days I want to go to a TM!!!!  Remember, you said you'd help with my makeup!  Nena, break out that roller brush!
    537 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • It was one year ago yesterday that I joined TW.  Hopefully after the first of the year I can FINALLY be a full member.  But what a year it's been!  I won't go into my usual whining today, I promise! The first friends I made here were Nena and Mariette.  I remember last Christmas when I was soooooo depressed.  All I wanted to do was get online and chat with them.  Those two really helped pull me out of the dumps. Then along came Christina (who also helped me with her kind words) and Stephanie Jones, then Tina Louise, Kendra, Delila, and so on (If I'm leaving anyone out I apologize).  With each day we all became so much closer.  Maria would soon enter my life and become one of my dearest and closest friends, along with Tressa, then JJ, Mandy, Clair, Wendy, Cerys, Champagne, Julia Legs, Fay, Ziggy, Emma, Claude, Laura, Tiina, and the list goes on.  Again, I apologize if I omitted your name.  It is not intentional. It was TW that gave me the courage to finally come out to some people.  I can finally speak about Meredith at home, although not too much!  TW has been a real lifesaver.  As I wrote in one of my first blogs, I felt like I was a human.  I've burdened you all with too much, and I hope I have at least given you something back in return.  God/Buddha/Krishna bless Katie!!!!! Girls, one of these days I want to go to a TM!!!!  Remember, you said you'd help with my makeup!  Nena, break out that roller brush!
    Dec 16, 2004 537
  • 23 Oct 2004
    Today is cold and rainy.  What a cliche. It matches my mood. It's 9 a.m. and I decided to start drinking wine.  I wish I was drunk last night when all this came to pass.  That way I'd at least have a lame excuse for my sorry existence. I'm also deciding what to do about myself. Too bad I can't see my shrink right now.  I do think my family - on both sides - might be thinking I should be put away. They all talked last night. Maybe I should be put away. The more I think the more I cry. I always thought I could handle anything.  The one part of my life I do like is being Meredith. That makes me happy. I'll see what else happens today.
    537 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Today is cold and rainy.  What a cliche. It matches my mood. It's 9 a.m. and I decided to start drinking wine.  I wish I was drunk last night when all this came to pass.  That way I'd at least have a lame excuse for my sorry existence. I'm also deciding what to do about myself. Too bad I can't see my shrink right now.  I do think my family - on both sides - might be thinking I should be put away. They all talked last night. Maybe I should be put away. The more I think the more I cry. I always thought I could handle anything.  The one part of my life I do like is being Meredith. That makes me happy. I'll see what else happens today.
    Oct 23, 2004 537
  • 22 Jul 2004
    I really don't drink every day, maybe on the weekends if anything, so I guess going without until I know for sure is fine. My diet needs to improve.  I was doing good for a while with healthier eating.  I thought my wife was uncaring about it yesterday, and even lecturing me.  We had a little row about it and slept apart.  When we spoke this morning she made it clear this was her way of telling me how she cared, whether it was the diet, the meds, or no booze at all.  And she's right.  It's probably the meds that's doing this to me.  There's no panic now and the doctor didn't think I needed anything in an emergency.  Still, if anything should happen, I'll leave instructions as to how to tell you all. And my back, and back of my neck, are still hot from the other day!  Thanks for the lotion, Tiina!
    482 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • I really don't drink every day, maybe on the weekends if anything, so I guess going without until I know for sure is fine. My diet needs to improve.  I was doing good for a while with healthier eating.  I thought my wife was uncaring about it yesterday, and even lecturing me.  We had a little row about it and slept apart.  When we spoke this morning she made it clear this was her way of telling me how she cared, whether it was the diet, the meds, or no booze at all.  And she's right.  It's probably the meds that's doing this to me.  There's no panic now and the doctor didn't think I needed anything in an emergency.  Still, if anything should happen, I'll leave instructions as to how to tell you all. And my back, and back of my neck, are still hot from the other day!  Thanks for the lotion, Tiina!
    Jul 22, 2004 482
  • 27 Jan 2005
    Please....I am not looking for compliments I think that one school is messed up and I won't be there. Yet, the other one had an emergency and, as usual, asked me to bail them out. So why did I act the fool tonight. The problems here aren't all my fault.  Yet, well, we'll get past it. All I want now is the romance back. My life back. When I was somebody. Maybe she's right. I am an idiot.
    556 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Please....I am not looking for compliments I think that one school is messed up and I won't be there. Yet, the other one had an emergency and, as usual, asked me to bail them out. So why did I act the fool tonight. The problems here aren't all my fault.  Yet, well, we'll get past it. All I want now is the romance back. My life back. When I was somebody. Maybe she's right. I am an idiot.
    Jan 27, 2005 556
  • 06 Dec 2004
    What a weekend.  As for my current state of mind, I had two breakthroughs over the weekend regarding my insecurities.  I came to some realizations and now I can really move forward. That means I'll stop making stupid comments at my wife about some things that only hurt her feelings.  There was no reason why I should have said some things. We had "Breakfast with Santa" on Saturday.  Although we did have a little row before we left, it was settled and we had a nice time.  On Saturday night we went to a Christmas Open House at some very dear friends of mine.  I almost came out to my female friend about Meredith.  I had the chance to speak with both Tressa and Maria yesterday, and that always makes me happy.  Soon I hope to call Mandy. The one thing I especially did yesterday concerns my drinking.  I'm not drinking every day, nor am I getting drunk a lot.  But lately there has been some increased alcohol use, especially as my personal and professional life was spiraling downward. Once or twice I said and/or did something really idiotic after a drink or two. It was suggested that I attend an AA meeting.  I did that last night and walked away with a sense of renewal. I'll be going back next week. So with all this, I actually got a good night's sleep for a Sunday.  I awoke this morning refreshed, and with good feelings I haven't had in a long time.  Tonight my daughter's class is putting on a little Christmas concert and I can't wait.
    504 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • What a weekend.  As for my current state of mind, I had two breakthroughs over the weekend regarding my insecurities.  I came to some realizations and now I can really move forward. That means I'll stop making stupid comments at my wife about some things that only hurt her feelings.  There was no reason why I should have said some things. We had "Breakfast with Santa" on Saturday.  Although we did have a little row before we left, it was settled and we had a nice time.  On Saturday night we went to a Christmas Open House at some very dear friends of mine.  I almost came out to my female friend about Meredith.  I had the chance to speak with both Tressa and Maria yesterday, and that always makes me happy.  Soon I hope to call Mandy. The one thing I especially did yesterday concerns my drinking.  I'm not drinking every day, nor am I getting drunk a lot.  But lately there has been some increased alcohol use, especially as my personal and professional life was spiraling downward. Once or twice I said and/or did something really idiotic after a drink or two. It was suggested that I attend an AA meeting.  I did that last night and walked away with a sense of renewal. I'll be going back next week. So with all this, I actually got a good night's sleep for a Sunday.  I awoke this morning refreshed, and with good feelings I haven't had in a long time.  Tonight my daughter's class is putting on a little Christmas concert and I can't wait.
    Dec 06, 2004 504