Meredith Newton 's Entries

• 28 Jan 2007
  Ah, bien

  Just a quick check in……. First of all, it is good that Karen Brad is getting back on her feet, literally and figuratively. My finances keep going down further and further.  Oh well.  Been there before.  I might have a plan to get out of it.  Concern levels are rising, though. Work is more interesting than ever.  We are an incredible team there.  The best. People keep wanting to either take my piccie or take one with me.  I can’t figure out why.  I’m nothing to look at.  Some people want a shot of me in my uniform, like at the coal mine.  Some high school kids interviewed me on video for their school news program.  Last week these 20 year old college girls wanted to take a piccie with me in front of the train.  Then, today, these French girls were hanging around by the train to try and get my phone number. I have been blessed with great co-workers.  We have a good time driving the department brown-noser nuts.  Today a friend was giving me a ride downtown so I could catch an earlier train than usual.  When the four of us got in the car, well, let’s just say you never heard a more obscene conversation. My one class is overloaded.  People are beating down the door to take it. I will be making contact with the gender clinic on Monday.  Hopefully this could get going soon. So, trying to keep my head above water.

  920 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  Ah, bien

  Just a quick check in……. First of all, it is good that Karen Brad is getting back on her feet, literally and figuratively. My finances keep going down further and further.  Oh well.  Been there before.  I might have a plan to get out of it.  Concern levels are rising, though. Work is more interesting than ever.  We are an incredible team there.  The best. People keep wanting to either take my piccie or take one with me.  I can’t figure out why.  I’m nothing to look at.  Some people want a shot of me in my uniform, like at the coal mine.  Some high school kids interviewed me on video for their school news program.  Last week these 20 year old college girls wanted to take a piccie with me in front of the train.  Then, today, these French girls were hanging around by the train to try and get my phone number. I have been blessed with great co-workers.  We have a good time driving the department brown-noser nuts.  Today a friend was giving me a ride downtown so I could catch an earlier train than usual.  When the four of us got in the car, well, let’s just say you never heard a more obscene conversation. My one class is overloaded.  People are beating down the door to take it. I will be making contact with the gender clinic on Monday.  Hopefully this could get going soon. So, trying to keep my head above water.

  Jan 28, 2007 920
• 20 Jan 2007
  I'm being followed

  I took my daughter to see “Night at the Museum” this afternoon.  A co-worker almost came with us.  I must admit, the movie was cute.  It had some forgettable moments, along with some predictable elements, but overall it was a nice time.  There were some good laughs in it. Okay, now, who has been following me? It is amazing how closely this movie resembles my real life!  A down-on-my-luck sort of person, divorced (well, I am almost divorced), has a young child who lives with the ex, needs to get his/her life on track, and gets a job working in a museum.  And, finds what appears to be a potential new partner in the process. As for the museum coming to life, does that really happen?  I am not a liberty to say. I told my co-worker Carla about this and she had to laugh.  I think she agrees.

  819 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  I'm being followed

  I took my daughter to see “Night at the Museum” this afternoon.  A co-worker almost came with us.  I must admit, the movie was cute.  It had some forgettable moments, along with some predictable elements, but overall it was a nice time.  There were some good laughs in it. Okay, now, who has been following me? It is amazing how closely this movie resembles my real life!  A down-on-my-luck sort of person, divorced (well, I am almost divorced), has a young child who lives with the ex, needs to get his/her life on track, and gets a job working in a museum.  And, finds what appears to be a potential new partner in the process. As for the museum coming to life, does that really happen?  I am not a liberty to say. I told my co-worker Carla about this and she had to laugh.  I think she agrees.

  Jan 20, 2007 819
• 15 Jan 2007
  Ik ben een lerares

  Is my life getting really interesting these days?  That is an understatement……. First of all, girls, if there is anything you can do to help Karen Brad, please do so. Yesterday my sister and her hubby came by.  They’re going back to Utah in a few days.  They both know about me.  My sister helped me get all dolled up.  I have to say this – I LOOKED SO CUTE!!!  Some of my eyeliner was still on this morning when I went to work.  My friend Carla (that Mabelline model) said she loved my eyes.  Unfortunately, I did not have a camera available for piccies. I was in the coal mine officially today for the first time.  It was nice to get away from the Zephyr.  I got several rounds of applause when I finished the sessions.  Each session is a half hour.  That’s a lot of material to know.  I also get to operate mining equipment (VERY dangerous for a psycho ninja), as well as take them on a “man-trip,” this very short underground train ride.  I love driving that thing! WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I AM ON THE ZEPHYR SOMEONE FEELS THE NEED TO, SHALL WE SAY, “PERFUME” THE TRAIN COMPARTMENTS???????  The other day someone cracked one so bad I had to open the passenger doors early just to air out the place. Lots more is happening, and, to be honest, it is making me rethink quite a few things. And not for the worse, either.  Time will tell. Take care, all Mere

  1017 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  Ik ben een lerares

  Is my life getting really interesting these days?  That is an understatement……. First of all, girls, if there is anything you can do to help Karen Brad, please do so. Yesterday my sister and her hubby came by.  They’re going back to Utah in a few days.  They both know about me.  My sister helped me get all dolled up.  I have to say this – I LOOKED SO CUTE!!!  Some of my eyeliner was still on this morning when I went to work.  My friend Carla (that Mabelline model) said she loved my eyes.  Unfortunately, I did not have a camera available for piccies. I was in the coal mine officially today for the first time.  It was nice to get away from the Zephyr.  I got several rounds of applause when I finished the sessions.  Each session is a half hour.  That’s a lot of material to know.  I also get to operate mining equipment (VERY dangerous for a psycho ninja), as well as take them on a “man-trip,” this very short underground train ride.  I love driving that thing! WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I AM ON THE ZEPHYR SOMEONE FEELS THE NEED TO, SHALL WE SAY, “PERFUME” THE TRAIN COMPARTMENTS???????  The other day someone cracked one so bad I had to open the passenger doors early just to air out the place. Lots more is happening, and, to be honest, it is making me rethink quite a few things. And not for the worse, either.  Time will tell. Take care, all Mere

  Jan 15, 2007 1017
• 09 Jan 2007
  Got clinic?

  Now that I am back online I can keep in better touch. I have found a local gender clinic and am in the process of setting up an appointment with them.  My endo is especially keen on working with one in order to make sure we are properly following the SOC (Standards of Care) in regards to my HRT.  Being his first TS patient, he wants to make sure all goes well.  I should know later today when I have my first appointment, then I can let him know. This means I might be fully out sooner than I thought.  We shall see. Finances have taken a nose dive.  On top of it, the brakes on my car all but died.  That is an expense I can’t handle now.  Because of this visitations with my kid have been cut for the moment. I have not been myself lately, and have been quieter than usual.  Even my co-workers noticed this and ask if I am okay on a regular basis.  It’s nice to work with such great people.  Maybe going through these holidays totally alone had an effect on me. The one good thing is that my upcoming class on Chicago history is a go.  For a while there I was checking my faculty site to see how many people were registered, only to see nobody was listed.  Since I hadn’t heard from the Dean about potential class cancellation due to low enrollment, I just figured they were late with posting this information.  I checked yesterday and saw that I have even more people than I thought I would have.  I hope I ordered enough textbooks!  This is going to be great. At least I am working, and doing what I love.  The boats start up again in a few months.  I have to decide very soon if I will go back.  I don’t want to give up my museum job, and when I have days off I would prefer not to be working.  I’ve had burnout before and it is not fun. Mere

  912 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  Got clinic?

  Now that I am back online I can keep in better touch. I have found a local gender clinic and am in the process of setting up an appointment with them.  My endo is especially keen on working with one in order to make sure we are properly following the SOC (Standards of Care) in regards to my HRT.  Being his first TS patient, he wants to make sure all goes well.  I should know later today when I have my first appointment, then I can let him know. This means I might be fully out sooner than I thought.  We shall see. Finances have taken a nose dive.  On top of it, the brakes on my car all but died.  That is an expense I can’t handle now.  Because of this visitations with my kid have been cut for the moment. I have not been myself lately, and have been quieter than usual.  Even my co-workers noticed this and ask if I am okay on a regular basis.  It’s nice to work with such great people.  Maybe going through these holidays totally alone had an effect on me. The one good thing is that my upcoming class on Chicago history is a go.  For a while there I was checking my faculty site to see how many people were registered, only to see nobody was listed.  Since I hadn’t heard from the Dean about potential class cancellation due to low enrollment, I just figured they were late with posting this information.  I checked yesterday and saw that I have even more people than I thought I would have.  I hope I ordered enough textbooks!  This is going to be great. At least I am working, and doing what I love.  The boats start up again in a few months.  I have to decide very soon if I will go back.  I don’t want to give up my museum job, and when I have days off I would prefer not to be working.  I’ve had burnout before and it is not fun. Mere

  Jan 09, 2007 912
• 08 Jan 2007
  Meredith the Miner

  Okay, back in the saddle again.......While it wasn’t all that expensive, getting the laptop fixed hurt financially.  But it is nice to have it back.  I can get back to work.The museum is coming along fine, but some of our hours are being cut these days.  They should pick up again.  The best part about this is that I am FINALLY going to be trained to work the coal mine exhibit, which I want in the worst way.  The last exhibit I will learn is the U-505 submarine.  The museum has a captured Nazi sub, and it is the most difficult of all the scripts to learn.  I am already working on it. I am coming very close to outing myself to them.  I am dropping hints, and they have noticed that I am considerably quieter these days.  I just have a lot to sort out right now.  I have this feeling they will be accepting once they know. “High School Musical” is on again.  I love that movie.  I really don’t know why! Take care, girls.  More later. Oh, by the way, did I mention Lexi?  We talk as much as we can.  And e-mail as well.  The details shall be quite exclusive!

  866 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  Meredith the Miner

  Okay, back in the saddle again.......While it wasn’t all that expensive, getting the laptop fixed hurt financially.  But it is nice to have it back.  I can get back to work.The museum is coming along fine, but some of our hours are being cut these days.  They should pick up again.  The best part about this is that I am FINALLY going to be trained to work the coal mine exhibit, which I want in the worst way.  The last exhibit I will learn is the U-505 submarine.  The museum has a captured Nazi sub, and it is the most difficult of all the scripts to learn.  I am already working on it. I am coming very close to outing myself to them.  I am dropping hints, and they have noticed that I am considerably quieter these days.  I just have a lot to sort out right now.  I have this feeling they will be accepting once they know. “High School Musical” is on again.  I love that movie.  I really don’t know why! Take care, girls.  More later. Oh, by the way, did I mention Lexi?  We talk as much as we can.  And e-mail as well.  The details shall be quite exclusive!

  Jan 08, 2007 866
• 03 Jan 2007
  Be back very soon

  Hey all,This is just a quick message.  I woke up Christmas morning to find my laptop crashed.  I wasn't able to get it into any shop for a few days, and they should have it back by tomorrow (Thursday).  So I have not died, fallen off the face of the earth, gone into exile, etc.  I am posting now because campus finally reopened and I am using their computers to get caught up with e-mails.Not too terribly much to report in the meantime.  Christmas was pretty much non-existent to me as I spent the entire day totally alone.  I got severe burnout at work.  Thankfully I finally got a few days off, and I am spending that time with my kid.I miss you all.  I will be back very soon.Mere

  930 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  Be back very soon

  Hey all,This is just a quick message.  I woke up Christmas morning to find my laptop crashed.  I wasn't able to get it into any shop for a few days, and they should have it back by tomorrow (Thursday).  So I have not died, fallen off the face of the earth, gone into exile, etc.  I am posting now because campus finally reopened and I am using their computers to get caught up with e-mails.Not too terribly much to report in the meantime.  Christmas was pretty much non-existent to me as I spent the entire day totally alone.  I got severe burnout at work.  Thankfully I finally got a few days off, and I am spending that time with my kid.I miss you all.  I will be back very soon.Mere

  Jan 03, 2007 930
• 22 Dec 2006
  My holiday wish to you

  This is my holiday wish to you all:Be healthy and happy, and know how much I love you.I do love you all. I will always love you.I could sit here and recount all that has happened this past year. Lilienne, you were right. This was my year. 2006 was my year. I can’t believe what did happen. The laughter, the tears, the heartbreak, the hope, the success, and now love. This has been an incredible year.If there was any way I could get Karen Brad to come out here to visit for New Years I would. I could then repay the favor.Being a Buddhist/Hindu/Catholic, I pray for all of you to be well.Of course, my Christmas gift this year is Lexi. My door is open to anyone who needs it.I love you.Happy Holidays.Meredith the Psycho Ninja

  991 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  My holiday wish to you

  This is my holiday wish to you all:Be healthy and happy, and know how much I love you.I do love you all. I will always love you.I could sit here and recount all that has happened this past year. Lilienne, you were right. This was my year. 2006 was my year. I can’t believe what did happen. The laughter, the tears, the heartbreak, the hope, the success, and now love. This has been an incredible year.If there was any way I could get Karen Brad to come out here to visit for New Years I would. I could then repay the favor.Being a Buddhist/Hindu/Catholic, I pray for all of you to be well.Of course, my Christmas gift this year is Lexi. My door is open to anyone who needs it.I love you.Happy Holidays.Meredith the Psycho Ninja

  Dec 22, 2006 991
• 15 Dec 2006
  HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

  Happy anniversary to me!Okay, while I am technically posting this on the 14th, in U.S. time, it is the 15th in Europe.It was three years ago today that I made the life saving choice and joined Trannyweb. What a difference three years has made. If anyone told me three years ago that I would be getting divorced, being open about who I am, on the verge of starting HRT, and having Lexi in my life, I would not have believed it.There is so much I could say right now. For the moment, I am just enjoying life.You have all seen me go through so much. From happiness to despair to hope, and then going through hell and beyond. No matter what ever happened, I never quit. I owe so much to you girls for being there for me for so long. While I still have quite a way to go, I’d like to think the worst is behind me.I will write more later about what is happening with other things. It looks like I will be featured on Japanese television. And me and Lexi are taking every moment we can to talk. Hopefully we’ll be together soon.Mere

  862 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

  Happy anniversary to me!Okay, while I am technically posting this on the 14th, in U.S. time, it is the 15th in Europe.It was three years ago today that I made the life saving choice and joined Trannyweb. What a difference three years has made. If anyone told me three years ago that I would be getting divorced, being open about who I am, on the verge of starting HRT, and having Lexi in my life, I would not have believed it.There is so much I could say right now. For the moment, I am just enjoying life.You have all seen me go through so much. From happiness to despair to hope, and then going through hell and beyond. No matter what ever happened, I never quit. I owe so much to you girls for being there for me for so long. While I still have quite a way to go, I’d like to think the worst is behind me.I will write more later about what is happening with other things. It looks like I will be featured on Japanese television. And me and Lexi are taking every moment we can to talk. Hopefully we’ll be together soon.Mere

  Dec 15, 2006 862
• 11 Dec 2006
  Fun fun fun

  This is just a quick check-in. I actually have a few moments to sit and do nothing.I put in some insanely long hours at the museum. We are asked to work at least two night events each month, and I did two this week alone. On Thursday, which was bitterly cold, me and my friend Carla had little to do at the Zephyr, so we found ways to amuse ourselves the whole night. Carla has graciously offered to drive my ex crazy. She wants to meet my daughter, especially since they’re the same type of person (biracial). Carla is a model, and does work for Mabeliene, so when she meets my kid, and the ex is there, well, you can just imagine what she has in mind (and, yes, Carla knows I have Lexi! We’re just friends). On Saturday the woman in charge of these things didn’t tell us that this particular event would end at 11, and not 10 as we all thought, until about 20 minutes before we were to be at our posts. I was not happy at first, although the time and a half overtime pay will be nice when I get paid next. I have another night event next Saturday. The one part of my job I love so much is seeing the happy faces on all those children. The adults, too! Go check out the museum site at www.msichicago.org.I spoke to the ex on Saturday about when my kid has her Christmas break. I want to take her to the museum to see some nice exhibits before they’re gone. My ex then asked me for money! Apparently her mortgage will be late. I have no legal obligations to this house any more, which she is in NO danger of losing, and she still expects me to support it. I told her I would check my bank account. Which I haven’t done, especially since she woke me up this morning to do just what I anticipated – give me a little lecture about these dolls I bought my daughter last week. Oh well.The problem with this schedule is that I can’t speak to Lexi much these days (you knew I was going to mention her, didn’t you). We get in a call whenever we can. I have her Christmas gifts all picked out. I just have to get the time to pick them up. As for what I want from her, well, all she has to do is to wrap herself up and then I can……..never mind……..But having Lexi like this has made this holiday season far better than things were at this time last year. I might actually pick up a little tree, and decorations, for my apartment. I’m actually happy for a change. I can’t wait to see her.Last night was the first time in a while I could get fully dolled up – outfit, makeup, etc. If I stay in tonight I’ll use that time as well.More later……

  1076 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  Fun fun fun

  This is just a quick check-in. I actually have a few moments to sit and do nothing.I put in some insanely long hours at the museum. We are asked to work at least two night events each month, and I did two this week alone. On Thursday, which was bitterly cold, me and my friend Carla had little to do at the Zephyr, so we found ways to amuse ourselves the whole night. Carla has graciously offered to drive my ex crazy. She wants to meet my daughter, especially since they’re the same type of person (biracial). Carla is a model, and does work for Mabeliene, so when she meets my kid, and the ex is there, well, you can just imagine what she has in mind (and, yes, Carla knows I have Lexi! We’re just friends). On Saturday the woman in charge of these things didn’t tell us that this particular event would end at 11, and not 10 as we all thought, until about 20 minutes before we were to be at our posts. I was not happy at first, although the time and a half overtime pay will be nice when I get paid next. I have another night event next Saturday. The one part of my job I love so much is seeing the happy faces on all those children. The adults, too! Go check out the museum site at www.msichicago.org.I spoke to the ex on Saturday about when my kid has her Christmas break. I want to take her to the museum to see some nice exhibits before they’re gone. My ex then asked me for money! Apparently her mortgage will be late. I have no legal obligations to this house any more, which she is in NO danger of losing, and she still expects me to support it. I told her I would check my bank account. Which I haven’t done, especially since she woke me up this morning to do just what I anticipated – give me a little lecture about these dolls I bought my daughter last week. Oh well.The problem with this schedule is that I can’t speak to Lexi much these days (you knew I was going to mention her, didn’t you). We get in a call whenever we can. I have her Christmas gifts all picked out. I just have to get the time to pick them up. As for what I want from her, well, all she has to do is to wrap herself up and then I can……..never mind……..But having Lexi like this has made this holiday season far better than things were at this time last year. I might actually pick up a little tree, and decorations, for my apartment. I’m actually happy for a change. I can’t wait to see her.Last night was the first time in a while I could get fully dolled up – outfit, makeup, etc. If I stay in tonight I’ll use that time as well.More later……

  Dec 11, 2006 1076
• 06 Dec 2006
  Won't be around much for a few days!

  My museum job is really hopping these days. This week I am working two night events, so I won’t be around much. I might work a third night event for my friend Kristen, but I am not sure if I need to be running myself so ragged. I could use the OT pay, though. You know you have a great job that is so much fun when you laugh all the way home about what happened during the day. Kristen told me this story about something she did when she was 6 or 7 and it still makes me laugh. It’s a story about how a child repeats something she heard but doesn’t know what she is saying. She had me in tears, and in front of the museum visitors, too. Then we were acting out movies, especially "Ghostbusters."That one girl who I thought might have been a pain turned out to be pretty cool after all. I just needed to understand where she was coming from, and once I did that I saw she is a nice person. My other co-workers are great. However, one dude who started the same day as me has now stepped forward as the official brown-noser. Let’s just say he is impressing nobody, especially those who have been there for years. We’re actually enjoying watching him make a fool out of himself.Lord knows I loved working for the boats, but there was a very clear line there between who was part of the "in-crowd" and who wasn’t (take a big guess who wasn’t, and who didn’t care). All of us PIs (Program Interpreters) do tend to act as one big family, even with the brown-noser.I am making some calls today to register with a gender clinic so I can get HRT started. I saw my regular doctor the other day and she put me on some new medication for blood pressure and cholesterol. The endo doesn’t see any problems with me doing those meds, and then hormones. This means coming out very soon. This is so exciting.I also speak to Lexi a lot more than usual. We’re trying to get together very soon. I still wonder what a girl as beautiful and sexy as she is sees in me! I really can’t wait to see her.My ex has really relaxed these days. I see my daughter more and more, and she lets me drive her in the Dirty Bird (although they don’t know the meaning of the name). It enables us to do a lot more on our visits.So, I’ll get here as much as I can. Which over the next few days won’t be that much.

  881 Posted by Meredith Newton
• By Meredith Newton

  Won't be around much for a few days!

  My museum job is really hopping these days. This week I am working two night events, so I won’t be around much. I might work a third night event for my friend Kristen, but I am not sure if I need to be running myself so ragged. I could use the OT pay, though. You know you have a great job that is so much fun when you laugh all the way home about what happened during the day. Kristen told me this story about something she did when she was 6 or 7 and it still makes me laugh. It’s a story about how a child repeats something she heard but doesn’t know what she is saying. She had me in tears, and in front of the museum visitors, too. Then we were acting out movies, especially "Ghostbusters."That one girl who I thought might have been a pain turned out to be pretty cool after all. I just needed to understand where she was coming from, and once I did that I saw she is a nice person. My other co-workers are great. However, one dude who started the same day as me has now stepped forward as the official brown-noser. Let’s just say he is impressing nobody, especially those who have been there for years. We’re actually enjoying watching him make a fool out of himself.Lord knows I loved working for the boats, but there was a very clear line there between who was part of the "in-crowd" and who wasn’t (take a big guess who wasn’t, and who didn’t care). All of us PIs (Program Interpreters) do tend to act as one big family, even with the brown-noser.I am making some calls today to register with a gender clinic so I can get HRT started. I saw my regular doctor the other day and she put me on some new medication for blood pressure and cholesterol. The endo doesn’t see any problems with me doing those meds, and then hormones. This means coming out very soon. This is so exciting.I also speak to Lexi a lot more than usual. We’re trying to get together very soon. I still wonder what a girl as beautiful and sexy as she is sees in me! I really can’t wait to see her.My ex has really relaxed these days. I see my daughter more and more, and she lets me drive her in the Dirty Bird (although they don’t know the meaning of the name). It enables us to do a lot more on our visits.So, I’ll get here as much as I can. Which over the next few days won’t be that much.

  Dec 06, 2006 881