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• Allways Fighting

  by Karen Brad December 21, 2006
  My meds are giving me depression. So I got meds for that. They want me to see a shrink but the cost was to high. So my insurence waved the deductable & will pay 100%.Which turns out to be a good thing because the doctor called to tell me they found a growth in my liver. Is it cancer, they don't ...

• Good & Bad News

  by Karen Brad December 18, 2006
  I was just talking to the doctor & he says the treatment is working very well. But it is also having some side effects.The feeling of not being able to breath is caused by anemia. My mood swings & constant crying are also a part of the side effects. The feeling that life isn't worth living i...

• by Karen Brad December 18, 2006
  I just woke up feeling like I can't breath. I am, but it feels like I'm not getting any air. Now I'm afraid to lay back down cause as soon as I do the feeling comes back. This is very scary. I wish to god I wasn't so alone.

• A Difficult Weekend

  by Karen Brad December 10, 2006
  My meds have realy kicked my butt this weekend. I feel horrid. I'm cold, I'm hot, I'm shaking like a leaf. Every muscle & joint hurts. 4 & 1/2 more months of this yet to go.I made a comment in Gloria Glover's blog that I felt the same when she said she had lost intrest in this site. Well I h...

• by Karen Brad December 7, 2006
  Thay switched my meds from capsuls to tablets. Supposed to be the same but now I can't sleep. I was so tired at work yesterday they sent me home. The doctor is calling it lite depression. I call it shit. Haven't slept since Mon. I was sleeping 8 to 10 hrs a night. Not anymore. I see the doc tomorrow...

• The Weekends Over

  by Karen Brad December 4, 2006
  Now I have to put on pants again. My meds have kept me in the apartment sleeping pretty much since Friday night. I have been wearing silks since I got home from work on Friday.I Don't Want To Wear Pants!!!But I don't think I can wear a skirt to work this morning.

• by Karen Brad December 2, 2006
  It has been quite a week. At work they said I was going to lose my job if I was just late one time. 2 days later I was caught by a train on my way in & I just made it. I was called into the office & they had a plan so that if something did happen I won't lose my job. My start time was 9:30 i...

• An Old Softy

  by Karen Brad November 26, 2006
  I aws having trouble sleeping lastnight so I got up & turned on the TV. The only thing I could find was the newer version of "The Parent Trap". Kids get to me hard. I bet I lost a gallon of water crying at thier hurt feelings. I hate movies with kids.The plan for yesterday was to have ...

• Things I Think Of

  by Karen Brad November 25, 2006
  The video card in my pc went out. Though I'm still coverd by Dell they make you go through 500 things before they'll ok a new card. Allthough I tried to save everything that mattered I forgot to save my address book. Some of those I lost are girls that are no longer here. These will be hard to get b...

• Odd Mood

  by Karen Brad November 16, 2006
  These new meds are taking a toll thats not so easy to see. For one I have no extra energy. I get up, go to work, come home, & want to just go to bed. At least 3 times I've taken the time to cook a dinner & than don't want to eat more than a few bites.  My mind keep saying the hell with it ab...