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  • 19 Apr 2008
    Wow! I made the top twenty blogs.....that success will be fleeting. That's a negative thought - I'm trying to be positive in all my thinking.  That's tough. It's so easy to pick up on the negative. I read somewhere that the "flip-flop" of thinking negative in part of my AngloSaxon heritige. For example: It's a beautiful day today but, it will probably be bad tomorrow. In some respects I accept that belief but then again its accepting predestination. I don't accept predestination because it negates free will or our power to make decisions. I was reading the thread about "global warming" - I think the thread went down the tube when it gave the impression that all that is forcast will happen in our life time. From all the information I've read the events will start 50 or more years from now. The socalled scientist have finally figured out that weather is cyclical - all weather, not just the seasons. To recap what I've read: 1. Weather, globally, is in a long term cycle. Warming, just as an Ice Age are part of the cycle.2. The last effects of the last ice age are within recorded history, as we know it. Currently (the last 1000 years) earth has been in the "in between" period. 3. We are heading for the Warmest part of the cycle. Thus "global warming" - no big deal. We or rather I won't be around to see it, not in this life time. Maybe when I come back as that gorgious, fabulously rich bitch I might see more of it, but not now.4. The media, thrill seekers, are making a big deal over something they don't understand or probably don't want to understand. For another example "There's a meteor out there which may hit the earth." To me that's like I may hit the lottery tomorrow.  As we used to say "eh!"Now, I ask myself, why didn't I put that into the thread? Cause I'm chicken I guess. But, since I've managed to hit the "top twenty" bloggers, maybe I should start thinking about puting my responses in the forums - or maybe not...I might lose my top twenty status.
    755 Posted by Mary Grace
  • Wow! I made the top twenty blogs.....that success will be fleeting. That's a negative thought - I'm trying to be positive in all my thinking.  That's tough. It's so easy to pick up on the negative. I read somewhere that the "flip-flop" of thinking negative in part of my AngloSaxon heritige. For example: It's a beautiful day today but, it will probably be bad tomorrow. In some respects I accept that belief but then again its accepting predestination. I don't accept predestination because it negates free will or our power to make decisions. I was reading the thread about "global warming" - I think the thread went down the tube when it gave the impression that all that is forcast will happen in our life time. From all the information I've read the events will start 50 or more years from now. The socalled scientist have finally figured out that weather is cyclical - all weather, not just the seasons. To recap what I've read: 1. Weather, globally, is in a long term cycle. Warming, just as an Ice Age are part of the cycle.2. The last effects of the last ice age are within recorded history, as we know it. Currently (the last 1000 years) earth has been in the "in between" period. 3. We are heading for the Warmest part of the cycle. Thus "global warming" - no big deal. We or rather I won't be around to see it, not in this life time. Maybe when I come back as that gorgious, fabulously rich bitch I might see more of it, but not now.4. The media, thrill seekers, are making a big deal over something they don't understand or probably don't want to understand. For another example "There's a meteor out there which may hit the earth." To me that's like I may hit the lottery tomorrow.  As we used to say "eh!"Now, I ask myself, why didn't I put that into the thread? Cause I'm chicken I guess. But, since I've managed to hit the "top twenty" bloggers, maybe I should start thinking about puting my responses in the forums - or maybe not...I might lose my top twenty status.
    Apr 19, 2008 755
  • 09 Apr 2008
    Ok, Ok being over the hill can be a downer. I do my best to be upbeat. I learned to psych myself many years ago - I think I was in the 9th grade at the time. Had a good teacher, luckily.....made a great impression on me.I had a very nice reception for my paintings. We had a reasonable good turnout - mostly relatives and some friends. They liked my work - secret, we fed them cheese, crackers and champaign, unfortunately they haven't won the lottery so no buyers. The paintings will hang for the month - maybe some wealthy patron of the arts will wonder by and buy. Hope springs eternal. Talking of springs - I spang my left shoulder lifting a loaded ice chest. Gotta remember I'm not a kid anymore. Dug out the Bengay and the heating pad - it'll mend. Being left handed and not being able to use my left arm (hands are for typing)is rough. Something came up last week that I've been turning over in my mind ever since. I was reading the forums. This one thread was about personal stuff. I've always consider myself to be very open minded. I started to respond and in the middle of it I became very self conscious and decided to delete my response. I can't even remember what the thread was about but I suddenly didn't want to disclose my inner feelings. That's the first time I've done that and I've been trying to figure out why it happened. Some of the threads about "when did you start to dress femme?" or "are you more femme than drab?" I usually don't respond because I don't remember when I started to dress. Evidently, it may not have been a turn on or a fetish or I would have remember it as such. When I dress now I don't get turned on - it makes me happy. My female side is strong and has alway been, to my knowledge. I've never been "macho." I've been told that many times. Never played football or any other sport. I, laughingly, played softball - I think I dropped more catches. I did run track for a while - 'til I started to smoke. L:uckily, I quit smoking. I guess I've lead an uneventful life - no drugs, no complicated love life, just stayed "under the radar" so to speak. Maybe that was my problem - I did what was expected of me. Whoopee. I say but I did have some fun.My, my this has been going on and on. Should I delete? Nah
    672 Posted by Mary Grace
  • Ok, Ok being over the hill can be a downer. I do my best to be upbeat. I learned to psych myself many years ago - I think I was in the 9th grade at the time. Had a good teacher, luckily.....made a great impression on me.I had a very nice reception for my paintings. We had a reasonable good turnout - mostly relatives and some friends. They liked my work - secret, we fed them cheese, crackers and champaign, unfortunately they haven't won the lottery so no buyers. The paintings will hang for the month - maybe some wealthy patron of the arts will wonder by and buy. Hope springs eternal. Talking of springs - I spang my left shoulder lifting a loaded ice chest. Gotta remember I'm not a kid anymore. Dug out the Bengay and the heating pad - it'll mend. Being left handed and not being able to use my left arm (hands are for typing)is rough. Something came up last week that I've been turning over in my mind ever since. I was reading the forums. This one thread was about personal stuff. I've always consider myself to be very open minded. I started to respond and in the middle of it I became very self conscious and decided to delete my response. I can't even remember what the thread was about but I suddenly didn't want to disclose my inner feelings. That's the first time I've done that and I've been trying to figure out why it happened. Some of the threads about "when did you start to dress femme?" or "are you more femme than drab?" I usually don't respond because I don't remember when I started to dress. Evidently, it may not have been a turn on or a fetish or I would have remember it as such. When I dress now I don't get turned on - it makes me happy. My female side is strong and has alway been, to my knowledge. I've never been "macho." I've been told that many times. Never played football or any other sport. I, laughingly, played softball - I think I dropped more catches. I did run track for a while - 'til I started to smoke. L:uckily, I quit smoking. I guess I've lead an uneventful life - no drugs, no complicated love life, just stayed "under the radar" so to speak. Maybe that was my problem - I did what was expected of me. Whoopee. I say but I did have some fun.My, my this has been going on and on. Should I delete? Nah
    Apr 09, 2008 672
  • 26 Mar 2008
    I hate that saying "over the hill" - but I guess I'm there. I keep thinking that I might want to teach full time again. What a laugh. I accepted a two day substitute assignment. Today was day one. I got so bored. I baby sat all day. The "students"- we'll call them that - weren't interested in anything they were doing. I felt like the supervisor on a galley ship - whip and all. Tomorrow they're to read over the US constitution and answer some inane questions. Maybe I can get their attention - sort attention span- and impart some background information which isn't in their reading. That's a big maybe. I'lll probable have to tell them I was there - they have no concept of time. Talk about educationally deprived- the kids today aren't being educated - they're just test takers. I took tests but I knew a hell of a lot more about the subjects than what was tested. I can't blame the teachers. They have to play cop more than teacher or mentor. How is the next generation going to survive? I kid my wife when she asks about her retiring - I tell her we have a fast car all we need now are ski masks. We'd probable get caught first time out. That would seperate us - bad. We depend on each other all the time. It's like we're joined at the hip. I'm avoiding thinking about what either of us would do if either of us dies. She says we should go together - but then she says no that wouldn't work -"who goes first?"
    682 Posted by Mary Grace
  • I hate that saying "over the hill" - but I guess I'm there. I keep thinking that I might want to teach full time again. What a laugh. I accepted a two day substitute assignment. Today was day one. I got so bored. I baby sat all day. The "students"- we'll call them that - weren't interested in anything they were doing. I felt like the supervisor on a galley ship - whip and all. Tomorrow they're to read over the US constitution and answer some inane questions. Maybe I can get their attention - sort attention span- and impart some background information which isn't in their reading. That's a big maybe. I'lll probable have to tell them I was there - they have no concept of time. Talk about educationally deprived- the kids today aren't being educated - they're just test takers. I took tests but I knew a hell of a lot more about the subjects than what was tested. I can't blame the teachers. They have to play cop more than teacher or mentor. How is the next generation going to survive? I kid my wife when she asks about her retiring - I tell her we have a fast car all we need now are ski masks. We'd probable get caught first time out. That would seperate us - bad. We depend on each other all the time. It's like we're joined at the hip. I'm avoiding thinking about what either of us would do if either of us dies. She says we should go together - but then she says no that wouldn't work -"who goes first?"
    Mar 26, 2008 682
  • 15 Mar 2008
    I'm here and I'm confused - what else is new? My bride was talking about acting a part....she's a good actor, director and teacher. She said that acting a part can sometimes cause trouble. A person can get lost in the part they are playing and forget their identity. She gave examples - Jonathan Winters was one. He had to be institutionalized for a while til he got his head straight. She then said "that's what I don't want happening to you." Is Gracie a part I play? I don't think so. I feel that Gracie is part of me -all the time. Not just when I'm visually Gracie. I think universally...I don't think "macho" for a while and then switch to the "soft side." I've been told more than once that I'm not  the macho type and that my feminine side is strong. I can live with that - in fact- I'm confortable. I firmly believe in "Make Love Not War."  
    792 Posted by Mary Grace
  • I'm here and I'm confused - what else is new? My bride was talking about acting a part....she's a good actor, director and teacher. She said that acting a part can sometimes cause trouble. A person can get lost in the part they are playing and forget their identity. She gave examples - Jonathan Winters was one. He had to be institutionalized for a while til he got his head straight. She then said "that's what I don't want happening to you." Is Gracie a part I play? I don't think so. I feel that Gracie is part of me -all the time. Not just when I'm visually Gracie. I think universally...I don't think "macho" for a while and then switch to the "soft side." I've been told more than once that I'm not  the macho type and that my feminine side is strong. I can live with that - in fact- I'm confortable. I firmly believe in "Make Love Not War."  
    Mar 15, 2008 792
  • 13 Mar 2008
    Almost St Patty's day. My wife told me two days ago she wanted to find a white bra and panty set with shamrocks on them for me. If she couldn't find them in white then she'd look for them in green with white shamrocks. That sent a thrill though me because I been having the feeling that she didn't want to see me dressed. I thought about it and realized that I wasn't putting two and two together. She has been having trouble with her teeth - actually she had a crown put on a tooth and then developed an absess on the gum. She has been doctoring it with the meds that the dentist perscribed but it wasn't working. She now has to have a root canal in the crowned tooth. Some fun. I've been giving her all kinds of support because her depression and her spirit was low because of the infection. She was feeling beat down.  I've been there and should have realized it sooner....I get too self absorbed sometimes. Next week we have off and are planning to go up to Dallas/Ft Worth to visit art galleries and peddle my paintings. She mentioned a stop at a discount clothing chain in the area. She said "I don't need anything but ...." Of course I always fill in with "Gracie needs some things."I'm married to a gem.  Luck me. 
    807 Posted by Mary Grace
  • Almost St Patty's day. My wife told me two days ago she wanted to find a white bra and panty set with shamrocks on them for me. If she couldn't find them in white then she'd look for them in green with white shamrocks. That sent a thrill though me because I been having the feeling that she didn't want to see me dressed. I thought about it and realized that I wasn't putting two and two together. She has been having trouble with her teeth - actually she had a crown put on a tooth and then developed an absess on the gum. She has been doctoring it with the meds that the dentist perscribed but it wasn't working. She now has to have a root canal in the crowned tooth. Some fun. I've been giving her all kinds of support because her depression and her spirit was low because of the infection. She was feeling beat down.  I've been there and should have realized it sooner....I get too self absorbed sometimes. Next week we have off and are planning to go up to Dallas/Ft Worth to visit art galleries and peddle my paintings. She mentioned a stop at a discount clothing chain in the area. She said "I don't need anything but ...." Of course I always fill in with "Gracie needs some things."I'm married to a gem.  Luck me. 
    Mar 13, 2008 807
  • 04 Mar 2008
    Another thought about losing weight - what you or I consume at  meals shouldn't be larger than your fist. That's just a "rule of thumb" so to speak but it seems to be working for me.  I'm working on my waste line - tough area, but my waste cincher is easier to get into.I just finshed reading the thread about why we dress. Interesting answers. For me ????? The why is hard to answer. The what it does for me is different. It makes me feel good. I've always known I have a feminine side of my persona. I've alway thought of myself as a "gender bender" which is an old term. Reading a story or watching a movie I have always identified with the female character(s). I really can't answer the "why."I had been dressing (in pieces)since my teens. Full time including makeup, nail polish for the last nine years. The dressing part challenges me to make choices. Choosing complementary tops, skirts, slacks or tights. What colors to wear? Should I wear a black bra and panties or white? Should I wear hose requiring garter straps or stay-up hose? Are my nails long enough to paint? What jewelry to wear is a whole new ball game; more fun.My wife is very supportive and a good adviser on how I look.   I understand why it takes so long for my wife to get ready, including changing tops or skirs/slacks. Funny thing is that she never complains about the time I take. We borrow from each other - she has a nice selection of silk blouses, nice. I have a selection of turtle necks - she likes. If anyone looks at my pix in member's pix - I'm dressed in a formal gown. A wonderful off the shoulder gown. It was worn by her at our sons wedding. She was reluctant to buy it, at first. But with persuation she bought it. After the wedding, she encouraged me to try it on. I was afraid it might not fit me but I'm happy it did. It was a thrill to pose in it. I'm dressed femme from the skin out.....what fun.Sounds like "true confessions."
    769 Posted by Mary Grace
  • Another thought about losing weight - what you or I consume at  meals shouldn't be larger than your fist. That's just a "rule of thumb" so to speak but it seems to be working for me.  I'm working on my waste line - tough area, but my waste cincher is easier to get into.I just finshed reading the thread about why we dress. Interesting answers. For me ????? The why is hard to answer. The what it does for me is different. It makes me feel good. I've always known I have a feminine side of my persona. I've alway thought of myself as a "gender bender" which is an old term. Reading a story or watching a movie I have always identified with the female character(s). I really can't answer the "why."I had been dressing (in pieces)since my teens. Full time including makeup, nail polish for the last nine years. The dressing part challenges me to make choices. Choosing complementary tops, skirts, slacks or tights. What colors to wear? Should I wear a black bra and panties or white? Should I wear hose requiring garter straps or stay-up hose? Are my nails long enough to paint? What jewelry to wear is a whole new ball game; more fun.My wife is very supportive and a good adviser on how I look.   I understand why it takes so long for my wife to get ready, including changing tops or skirs/slacks. Funny thing is that she never complains about the time I take. We borrow from each other - she has a nice selection of silk blouses, nice. I have a selection of turtle necks - she likes. If anyone looks at my pix in member's pix - I'm dressed in a formal gown. A wonderful off the shoulder gown. It was worn by her at our sons wedding. She was reluctant to buy it, at first. But with persuation she bought it. After the wedding, she encouraged me to try it on. I was afraid it might not fit me but I'm happy it did. It was a thrill to pose in it. I'm dressed femme from the skin out.....what fun.Sounds like "true confessions."
    Mar 04, 2008 769
  • 03 Mar 2008
    That's a laugh. My body build is shoulder heavy which is not unusual for a male frame. Two years ago I weighed 210 lbs. I weighed this morning and I'm down to 186 lbs. I hope to get down to about 170- 175 lbs.....we'll see.My wife says don't worry about it but I would like to fit into a size 16 dress (if possible). I'm not killing myself. The doctor told me to cut out as much salt as possible and to exercise regularly. So I cut out the salt - no problem. I stopped drinking sodas some years back so sugar isn't a big deal. I can't handle caffine due to the prostrate cancer so that eliminated chocolat. Bread and Irish whiskey are my weaknes - so I'm doing my best to limit both. Exercising is fine as long as I'm not working. When I'm off work I do the stationery bicycle for 60 minutes one day and the weight training machines the following day.   This should help me keep the weight coming off and at the same time lower the bad colesterol and raise the good.  But there are some speed bumps along the way....like this morning.  It's a rainy day today and it's gotten colder again. I've got osteoarthritis -in the area of my spine between the shoulder blades - today it hurt. I did 30 minutes on the bike and then walked the gym floor for five minutes. Oh...I also did some preliminary stretches before I road the bike...that takes 10 minutes. So instead of a 90 minute workout I did half time.Ah, the joys of aging....although I still image myself as in my 20s. I learned a very long time ago that you have to psych yourself - no one can do it for you. Maybe I learned it too well. Thinking back I spent 30 years in a "going nowhere" marriage.  Praise the goddess for waking me up...she could have done it earlier ....maybe...I wouldn't be where I am today if she had.
    714 Posted by Mary Grace
  • That's a laugh. My body build is shoulder heavy which is not unusual for a male frame. Two years ago I weighed 210 lbs. I weighed this morning and I'm down to 186 lbs. I hope to get down to about 170- 175 lbs.....we'll see.My wife says don't worry about it but I would like to fit into a size 16 dress (if possible). I'm not killing myself. The doctor told me to cut out as much salt as possible and to exercise regularly. So I cut out the salt - no problem. I stopped drinking sodas some years back so sugar isn't a big deal. I can't handle caffine due to the prostrate cancer so that eliminated chocolat. Bread and Irish whiskey are my weaknes - so I'm doing my best to limit both. Exercising is fine as long as I'm not working. When I'm off work I do the stationery bicycle for 60 minutes one day and the weight training machines the following day.   This should help me keep the weight coming off and at the same time lower the bad colesterol and raise the good.  But there are some speed bumps along the way....like this morning.  It's a rainy day today and it's gotten colder again. I've got osteoarthritis -in the area of my spine between the shoulder blades - today it hurt. I did 30 minutes on the bike and then walked the gym floor for five minutes. Oh...I also did some preliminary stretches before I road the bike...that takes 10 minutes. So instead of a 90 minute workout I did half time.Ah, the joys of aging....although I still image myself as in my 20s. I learned a very long time ago that you have to psych yourself - no one can do it for you. Maybe I learned it too well. Thinking back I spent 30 years in a "going nowhere" marriage.  Praise the goddess for waking me up...she could have done it earlier ....maybe...I wouldn't be where I am today if she had.
    Mar 03, 2008 714
  • 15 Feb 2008
    For some reason (I'll work on it) I'm bothered by something in my horoscope this morning. It said I had to be "comfortable in my skin." That can be "heavey" - am I comfortable in my skin? Am I happy with what I'm doing - not really. I feel as if I'm treading water or waiting for something to happen.....like waiting for Christmas morning when I was a tot. The scope said I should have a plan before I jump into the rest of my life. A plan.... that's a tough one. It took me a lifetime to finally recognize that I'm an artist. The discouragement I received when I was a teen lingers on....why? I'm a crossdresser and I'm very comfortable as Mary Grace....why? In many respects I see that I'm more feminin than some born females. Are we (the transgendered) keeping femininity alive?  Think about thinking.
    730 Posted by Mary Grace
  • For some reason (I'll work on it) I'm bothered by something in my horoscope this morning. It said I had to be "comfortable in my skin." That can be "heavey" - am I comfortable in my skin? Am I happy with what I'm doing - not really. I feel as if I'm treading water or waiting for something to happen.....like waiting for Christmas morning when I was a tot. The scope said I should have a plan before I jump into the rest of my life. A plan.... that's a tough one. It took me a lifetime to finally recognize that I'm an artist. The discouragement I received when I was a teen lingers on....why? I'm a crossdresser and I'm very comfortable as Mary Grace....why? In many respects I see that I'm more feminin than some born females. Are we (the transgendered) keeping femininity alive?  Think about thinking.
    Feb 15, 2008 730
  • 12 Feb 2008
    I don't know whether Monday's should be cancelled but tTuesday(today) has been sort of a disaster. Everyone wants money....we don't have any to spare. Tried to get my sedan inspected this morning....can't pass inspection. I think I'm being ripped off...I think I'll get rid of that auto and get another. That sound rediculous but it might be the only solution. The auto is 9 years old ...that's not too old. My roadster is 14 years old...but then again the roadster has 66,000 miles on it while the sedan has 122,000..there's the rub. Looks like I'm going to have to find a full time job....but who iis going to hire me?The auto is not even on the priority list.  The list starts with fixing teeth first - house next - travel next....sounds like the outgo exceeds the income.(My femme wardrobe could use some additions...and that is on the list.)Otherwise things have been rocking along....my wife(who doesn't want to be called my SO)loves me....my gorgeous nieces love me, my sisters and my brother love me...what more could I ask for.....a dog? Would love to have one but not right now.
    780 Posted by Mary Grace
  • I don't know whether Monday's should be cancelled but tTuesday(today) has been sort of a disaster. Everyone wants money....we don't have any to spare. Tried to get my sedan inspected this morning....can't pass inspection. I think I'm being ripped off...I think I'll get rid of that auto and get another. That sound rediculous but it might be the only solution. The auto is 9 years old ...that's not too old. My roadster is 14 years old...but then again the roadster has 66,000 miles on it while the sedan has 122,000..there's the rub. Looks like I'm going to have to find a full time job....but who iis going to hire me?The auto is not even on the priority list.  The list starts with fixing teeth first - house next - travel next....sounds like the outgo exceeds the income.(My femme wardrobe could use some additions...and that is on the list.)Otherwise things have been rocking along....my wife(who doesn't want to be called my SO)loves me....my gorgeous nieces love me, my sisters and my brother love me...what more could I ask for.....a dog? Would love to have one but not right now.
    Feb 12, 2008 780