Recent Entries

• Boys Will Be Girls

  by Ariane Durand April 27, 2023
  Yesterday I went for a makeover and photoshoot at Boys Will Be Girls. This is a dressing service in London near London Bridge run by Cindy and her colleague Victoria. They offer a range of services also including makeup lessons, clothes storage, makeup and go (if you want to look your best for a nig...

• Somerset

  by Ariane Durand April 21, 2023
  I'm now trying to put events in my diary with at least one overnight stay so that I can be Ariane as much as possible when I'm away. This weekend I'm in Somerset – I have an event all day tomorrow. But tonight and tomorrow night is Ariane time.   So I'm staying in a cottage just outside Shepton Ma...

• My Ukrainian friend

  by Ariane Durand April 18, 2023
  It's been a difficult week. However, Ariane came out to play this afternoon. I went to see P & P by prior arrangement and went straight into the changing room. When I came out half an hour later, there were P & P, together with their Ukrainian refugee lodger whom I will call Ini. I wasn't expecting ...

• Playlist

  by Ariane Durand April 13, 2023
  I've created a playlist which I am optimistically calling "Recovery playlist."     1. Washing of the Water – Peter Gabriel 2. Last Kiss – Taylor Swift 3. I Can't Make You Love Me – Bonnie Raitt 4. Run to You – Lea Michele 5. You Could Be Happy –  Snow Patrol 6. Someone Like You – Adele 7. L...

• Trans is temporary

  by Ariane Durand April 11, 2023
  Today I realised something that I've probably known for a long time, but not so clearly. I'm living in the wrong body.   It was a relief to face up to that at last. I'm increasingly thinking of myself as female inside. I can't do anything about it. But I have crossed a line. It affects how I think...

• Country girl

  by Ariane Durand April 11, 2023
  It's Tuesday, I'm alone at home again, so I was straight into Ariane mode. The main question was, where to go today? None of my friends are available for a home visit (the ones who are still speaking to me that is).   So I got in the car and drove off. I was going to Farncombe, to walk round Broad...

• Ariane goes to tea

  by Ariane Durand April 8, 2023
  Today I called on Penny and Paul in boy mode for afternoon tea. On arrival I said, Can I use the bathroom please? I was up there about 20 minutes. I needed to change into something black…   So Ariane came downstairs for afternoon tea. Actually it was gin and tonic. I don't really do tea. We talked...

• After dark

  by Ariane Durand April 5, 2023
  In the end, going into the woods wasn't enough. I waited until it was dark then Ariane was off again. This time for a local walk through the neighbourhood. It's much easier in the dark as people are less likely to recognise you.   Out of our road, down another road, turn right beside the church, a...

• I just did a mad thing

  by Ariane Durand April 5, 2023
  Ariane couldn't stand being cooped up at home any longer. So I changed into my ankle boots, put on the Karen Millen coat, picked up the car keys, and… walked out the door.   It was scary at first because I had to walk 100 yards to where I'd left the car, past the neighbours' houses. But I didn't s...

• Ariane at home again

  by Ariane Durand April 5, 2023
  It's Wednesday, and another day when I'm at home alone. Ariane comes out to play. These are the best days of the week.   Today Ariane is wearing a miniskirt, a cotton/linen top with a scoop neck and fluted half-sleeves, and the Pleaser Amuse 5" heels.   I decided my wardrobe was not complete, pa...