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• Freeze

  by Rachel de Blanc November 6, 2014
  My son - approaching five years old, has expressed a desire to own the dress from Disney's 'Frozen'. I listen to my wife explain this to me, and she discourages me from reacting insensitively to his request. I feign indifference but inwardly recoil, not because of some macho reaction to my son's cur...
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• Having a moment

  by Rachel de Blanc August 8, 2014
  I am having a moment. It's between birth and death and it's called life, and the period that I am specifically writing about is so present that it's frequently referred to as now - at least it was a moment ago. I found myself at the verge, the verge of booking an appointment with a local therapist ...
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• Poetic Justice

  by Rachel de Blanc April 25, 2014
  Hello.   On Wednesday night, awake alone and playful, I wrote a new entry that was far more explicit and revealing than any predecessor. I was careful not to slip into poor pornography and keen to avoid the 'Bad Written Sex of the year Award' (?) as I'm happy that Alan Titchmarsh retains that...

• Debris of Illusion

  by Rachel de Blanc January 19, 2014
  As I sit here the house is full of the debris of illusion. My feet are aching a little from the pointed-toed kitten heels that are holding them in. A belt, clasped tight around my waist - which is actually dimunitive already, is present and curiously comforting. No bra because I have no breasts. Ge...
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• Leaf It

  by Rachel de Blanc October 8, 2013
  So I find myself on gardening leave, during consultation about my prospective redundancy. It was coming and it happened. The initiative has been taken away from me, and so I must pursue a new position with a clock ticking in the background. Ultimately it's good news I tell myself, because a change w...
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• Weekend of me

  by Rachel de Blanc April 12, 2013
  Hi. For those of us who purge and hide, the prospect of a free weekend can arrive with the need to shop. That's where I've been this evening and so I now sit, or slink in a new bra & knickers, a really sweet Celia Birtwell print dress / top from Uniglo (do go & look they're lovely) and new leggin...
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• Self-imposed boundaries

  by Rachel de Blanc November 25, 2012
  The alternative title for this could be 'Boxed In' This is a quick relfection upon the life of a closet dweller. I'm not going to pass any judgement here upon people in this situation, but for those who are not, or may have once passed through this gateway (sorry, bit of a clunky managament consu...
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• So you've popped up again I see?

  by Rachel de Blanc April 15, 2012
  So you might be wondering, 'What's she all about, nothing for months then three days of frequent visits..?" Well it's not difficult, simply my wife's been away and so Rachel has been able to relax for a bit. The three days have confirmed that: My hair isn't long enough, my wardrobe lacks most things...
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• Uncontrollably calm

  by Rachel de Blanc April 13, 2012
  The radio informs me that Edward Munch's The Scream is on display in London this week, for a single week. I think a lot of us might be able to emphasise with the main character. He's obviously just changed, grabbed his male clothing and walked back to normal everyday life, and exclaims his frustrati...

• Don't ever go back too often

  by Rachel de Blanc September 10, 2011
  A quiet night in so I re-visit some old blogs - to give me encouragement to contribute something new. What am I like..?! Most the the self-centred stuff that I've contributed here has been complete tosh. So sorry all for the delusional utterings. Would be lovely to talk of nights out clubbing, of p...
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