Recent Entries

• Losing my voice

  by Meredith Newton October 1, 2004
  I think I'm talking too much in class tonight.  Losing my voice. Nena had some good suggestions in the chatroom earlier about how to handle some of them.  I wish I had done it! Still down about things at home. We said we want to work through it all.  Nothing catastrophic happened, min...

• I'm really trying to kill myself now!

  by Meredith Newton September 29, 2004
  Before I left for classes this morning I had a leftover sloppy joe.  Then, for my lunch, I had a bag of sweet tarts and a bottle of water.  Maybe I am suicidal!  Plus, I'm trying to give an exam, and this ravishing redhead has her blouse opened up.  I need a drink! The fights at ...

• Slowly getting there

  by Meredith Newton September 27, 2004
  Hi all.  I'm doing a bit better right now.  I could use some more sleep and my head hurts a bit.  When that happens, especially on a Monday, I get all melancholy and feel nothing but gloom and doom.  My wife gave me a little talking to about taking better care of myself.  I ...

• Still breathless

  by Meredith Newton September 26, 2004
  First, an apology: I know damn well you care about me, and for that I love you.  I shouldn't have posted that blog but I was desperate.  My typing was horrible!  However, I am still having breathing problems and I hope I make it through the baptism I am attending today.  I might ...

• Just in case I don't come back

  by Meredith Newton September 26, 2004
  It's almost midnigt.  I cannot breathe.  Really.  My asthma is about to kill me and everyone i ever met will be better off without me. shit.  im choking.  i love you all.  i am typing while im chocking and nbody cares  in case I DO not come back I love you

• Out of sorts, yet ready to hope

  by Meredith Newton September 24, 2004
  I am out of sorts today, for several reasons. Yesterday was my marathon day, so I'm whipped.  But, also....... As I suspected in my last entry, things did get pretty tense the other day and pretty much remained that way through yesterday. I found out a little interesting tidbit and feel I was l...

• Getting a handle on it

  by Meredith Newton September 22, 2004
  In an hour I'll be making my way to the airport to pick up my wife.  I have to have someone take over my 1:30 class.  Things were really good until a little row last night.  Both her and her sister were making accusations of my being insecure about this business trip she had to take (...

• My perversion will get me fired, I just know it

  by Meredith Newton September 20, 2004
  Oh dear.  What a day.  I dropped off my wife at the airport and did pretty good with the goodbye.  Then I had the opportunity to pick up some cute satin bikinis on my way to campus.  I'll wear one to my morning class tomorrow.  The pink pair I had on today is actually f...

• Happiness

  by Meredith Newton September 19, 2004
  For the first time in years I actually don't hate myself.  Why?  I don't deserve these feelings right now. This has been an incredible weekend.  Our block party/sale was yesterday.  We made a few bucks off of it.  It was a gorgeous day outside and everyone was in a good mood...

• Stress relief

  by Meredith Newton September 17, 2004
  I'm sitting here dressed right now, the first I can do so much in a week.  I have my little turquoise skirt on - the one with the slit on the side - and it's crawling up me, so I'm showing a lot of leg right now.  Ah, the trampy look! A major source of my stress has been somewhat aleviated...