Recent Entries

• Who knows

  by Meredith Newton May 16, 2005
  Things could go any number of ways right now, including the marriage. I'm trying hard, yet still find it easy to goof up. I did spend some quality time with my daughter. Yesterday I bought the Sunday paper, as usual. In the job section was a big ad for Backstabber University. Apparently the other a...

• One quick one

  by Meredith Newton May 13, 2005
  Well, I've never really been quick (oh dear!), but here is a quickie (oh dear!). The phone interview was great. They were very personable people, and I made them laugh a few times. I'm wishing I had answered one or two questions better, but, then again, they have my resume so they know my fields of...

• Maybe solutions

  by Meredith Newton May 12, 2005
  Today I met with Alicia, the CD with whom Helen Boyd put me in touch. We met at a local coffee shop known for being TG friendly (well, Gay, Lesbian and Bi-friendly, too, but that's not the point). She's going to read my manuscript. She may also be teaching for that one school I've been at almost a y...

• Back to zero

  by Meredith Newton May 10, 2005
  As I mentioned earlier, I told Backstabber University I would still honor my commitment to do that summer class. It was supposed to be U.S. History Since 1865, which means I use my research work. Not any more. I got a letter from the interim dean today. He's been interim for over 4 years now and ha...

• Great. Another screw up

  by Meredith Newton May 5, 2005
  Yep, I managed to really f' up these days. I'm surprised she hasn't put me out yet, and she would have every right to do so.  No, I didn't cheat! I just screwed up on two fronts. And they were first class screw ups. I can't even bear to face them. Here's the interesting part - I have been inve...

• A plea, then a funny story (maybe)

  by Meredith Newton May 3, 2005
  Girls, we have some sisters here who really need our love and support. Clair, Lucy, Karen, and so many others (including me) have more crap on our plates than is necessary. While the differences in the problems are many, let's do all we can to let them know we care and we're right beside them all th...

• Healing period

  by Meredith Newton April 28, 2005
  The acceptance level at home has begun. She came back from her shrink yesterday a little irritated about it, but that's understandable. In fact, we made a joke about it today. I was making a reference to something and then said, "That makes me sound like a girl." Then I stopped and said "Wait, that ...

• As close as it will get

  by Meredith Newton April 25, 2005
  We've reached an agreement here at home, thanks in part to her shrink. While she will never understand my being TG - which is understandable - she's willing to endure it on a "don't ask don't tell" sort of basis. We have some other issues to work out, and as long as those get resolved, my being...

• Hey

  by Meredith Newton April 22, 2005
  Not too much to say other than I'm dealing with the problems I've caused my family. Tomorrow my wife has another appointment with her therapist and she's bringing my daughter with her. Definitely the tension and (occasional) fighting has affected her, as to be expected.  I feel like dirt becaus...

• I hate me

  by Meredith Newton April 18, 2005
  Yesterday I hurt my kid accidentally.  We were playing around and I picked her up, only to drop her a bit. She hit her head pretty hard.  I feel like crap today. I really screwed up big time this weekend.