Recent Entries

• What a day

  by Meredith Newton October 27, 2004
  Okay, marathon day today.  And, on top of it, I am a standby juror for tomorrow.  I'll find out this afternoon.  While I normally wouldn't mind, I'm just not in the mood. Actually, I'm not much in the mood for anything. I got chewed out big time last night for screwing up the painting...

• Academia is fun

  by Meredith Newton October 26, 2004
  Still in the stages of self-forgiveness. I really need to learn to let go and move past my mistakes. It's not easy. I'm still having some bad dreams and bad nights.  I've been up for a while now, although, in all honesty, I got up early to see my wife off. She had to go all the way downstate ag...

• How are you?

  by Meredith Newton October 25, 2004
  How are you?  Are you well? One of the students I asked to work with/for me as a research assistant is really into the project. Anything that will help her upcoming career is a joy to me. I wish I had these opportunities when I was that young. And now, to futher make my life busier than he...

• The road to recovery

  by Meredith Newton October 24, 2004
  After making a total ass out of myself Friday night, the road to forgiveness became shorter than expected. What I need to do is to forgive myself. I can't do that right now. Last night we watched "Van Helsing."  "Van STUPID" is more like it.  I was rooting for the bad guys!  Especiall...

• The morning after

  by Meredith Newton October 23, 2004
  Today is cold and rainy.  What a cliche. It matches my mood. It's 9 a.m. and I decided to start drinking wine.  I wish I was drunk last night when all this came to pass.  That way I'd at least have a lame excuse for my sorry existence. I'm also deciding what to do about myself. Too ba...

• I don't know what to think

  by Meredith Newton October 23, 2004
  I spoke to Tressa and Maria today.  I tried to call Mariette. Tonight was horrible.  And this is not a cry for help.  If I could right now, I would leave this world forever. I don't want help. I just want out.  No more.  I'm tougher than anyone, but I just want out...

• Pippa is so right!

  by Meredith Newton October 22, 2004
  To openly respond to Pippa's comments to my blog from yesterday, I agree with her.  That's generally how I do my classes - I teach and use the board.  I use videos and/or computers solely for illustration purposes.  This one school, as I said, rams the technology aspect down our throa...

• Meredith to the rescue! Well, maybe

  by Meredith Newton October 21, 2004
  Well, this is interesting. Okay, that school I used to bitch about and then liked... I'm bitching again... As I mentioned before, my next class at that latest school started last night. It was at this VERY ritzy Chicago downtown hotel. They have a main campus out in the suburbs, but their off-site f...

• Here come the marathon days again

  by Meredith Newton October 20, 2004
  That latest school of mine is on this rolling schedule of intensive 5-week terms. My first one ended two weeks ago, and the next one starts tonight.  So that means I won't be getting any sleep for over twelve hours from right now. The one good thing about today is my main school is off this wee...

• Trying to get my act together

  by Meredith Newton October 19, 2004
  I'm tired again today. Which is odd when you consider I passed out last night still wearing my daytime shirt. I was able to dress for a while before that dude came by to paint. Then it was goodbye to Meredith for the day. I overworked myself yesterday and it made me a bit goofy.  That's ho...